Persevering Love

I don't want to deny that my heart still bleeds and yearns for you
Know this truth, though I may front, all that I say and feel is true
I've given up on searching for a certain one that will heal me
What's the point searching for something that I know can never be?

I go through days just like a ghoul existing searching for my fate
An endless hope that somehow maybe for me your real love does wait
So here I stand with nothing left to give up but a broken heart
A slow pulse that is faint and weak since the last time our ways did part

Until I'm proven that this love is meaningless and has no grounds
Be sure that as long as I live my love for you will stick around
I know that you will experience the vastness the world has to show
In my silence I pray for you, that you're kept safe where you do go

But despite the space between us, and despite all the wrongs I've done
I'm never going to let this go until this man is dead and gone
So let me leave you to your life and fly like a dove white and pure
You'll venture out, fulfill your dreams, achieve your goals, of that, I'm sure

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Acceptance Of Death

Sitting here in the confinements
A room consumed with dead silence
Reflecting on life in darkness
Fighting thoughts of death and sadness

As Death acquires souls around
Their bodies buried underground
My mind, clenched, tries to fight the pain
Until some sanity's regained

Acceptance of Death, we must know
Requires some numbness in our souls
As mortals search through the windows
For signs of grief, but we've let go

Prayers tranport us to the doors
Of realms unseen, knees on the floor
Minds consumed in a darkened state
Pondering the paths to our fates

Our destines we may create
By the gates of death, loved ones wait
For who says in fear we must wail
And without riches we have failed?

Now we must venture into caves
Of nightmares beyond what sin craves
And combat states of mind, prepare
For what awaits us, looming near

As stillness of the air does bind
My conplicated state of mind
Thoughts of sadness, I must defeat
Where realness of life and death meets

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Until Then...

You held me in your arms so tight
I felt your soft heartbeats inside
Your smile, my sunlight in the dark
In my life you have left a mark

I'll cherish my memories you
Until with this life I am through
My heart is at peace, you're with me
Though gone, you're here eternally

Just you and me, stroll by the shores
I yearn for you to stay some more
Sleep tight, dear one, so endlessly
And until that day, wait for me

For Shireen.x

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Peace In My Heart

I feel no more pain, inside my rib cage
I can now maintain, peace replaces rage
I am free from you, I am free from blues
I'm finally true to myself, it's through

When we meet there'll be nothing left to say
Just the history, all that's gone away
Silence smoothers me with tranquility
Shadows enclose me in their entities

I can close my eyes, my heart is at ease
Where my body lies, I can rest in peace
No more of nightmares, I'm no longer here
No more dreaded fears, no more falling tears

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Time To Heal

The healing process makes me strong
While time heals I endure the pain
Hoping that it won't be too long
Before I'm recovered again

They say the lot like me don't change
But I've got nothing here to prove
And though my calmness may seem strange
It's only me, my inner groove

Each day I'm immersed in my thoughts
Some too complex for my fathom
But I feel deep inside my guts
I'm mentally rigid and strong

Sometimes I think back, when we met
And how naive I was to this
Worldly view of 'love', I reflect
And wonder what I truly miss

Is it the years that we had spent
Were they a waste of time we had?
But I've a new path, I repent
And for what I have, I am glad

Relections, self analysis
Coming to terms with how I feel
Sometimes your smile, I truly miss
But this is now my time to heal

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Thinking Back

I'm always reminiscing 'bout the good old days
Seems we're all getting older as those memories fade away
To live a good and long life here is what I solemnly pray
And losts ones always in my heart as I proceed everyday

They say we should always look forward, but sometimes I think back
To back in high school times when we were poor and didn't have jack
And though I wasn't popular I still had some fun sometimes
To some they're irrelevant moments, but those times will be mine

I think of times when I was younger in my old memories
That innocence is what I hunger for in all honesty
But now we're heading into dark times and more uncertainty
But for a moment I shall reminisce alone solemnly

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

I Am Stronger Than I Think

Why do I deceive myself, believing I've got inner strength?
A long path of solitude, to be with you I'd have gone lengths

Strong, they say, but cast my doubts, more hardened than a solid rock
Changed, I surely have, inside, as if my soul a lightening struck

Each day awaken, open bare, as if for the world I'm prepared
Once was to weak to face my fears, now I do, daily like I'm dared

A stranger told me once before I'm stronger than I think I am
Is this me or another mask? the mark inscribed in my right palm

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

A Moment of Peace

Rain droplets trickle outside of his window
Unknown to the world is the deepness of his soul
An aura of silence in chaos, stays mellow
While the world battles, he's asleep in the meadows

A timeless moment in the seconds of trauma
A gentle wind blows, free from anger or karma
Arising from fogs of bitterness, so peaceful
So far from the world, in a slumber, so blissful

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Free In Mind

I like to sit on plains of green
Let go of all the stress within
Look out into the open view
Take in the scene, so beautiful

I look over the world below
Escaping from the pain I know
And zone out into my own world
Where I am free from all the hurt

Sometimes I just sit on my own
Though it feels sad to be alone
And I look to the skies above
Daydream of some innocent love

Shut my eyes, feeling the cool breeze
Across my face, then breathe with ease
A place where slowly I unwind
I'm free in the world in my mind

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Why Does Love Hurt?

Why does love hurt? it's best not to fall in love at all
What's the whole point? Except that we mould and become strong
Why does love hurt? There is no point in falling in love
What's the whole point? You're never always going to get along

So I have proceeded in walking away from it all
Before I allow it to be my downfall
I have taken it upon myself to be strong
Let go of the past and forgive all my wrongs

I can feel it around me, I don't want to feel it
So I cut out my heart, try to get rid of it
Now there's no way I'm ever going to fall in love
The pain and the sadness it brings is too much

Why does love hurt? I used to daydream in my youth all the time
Now what's the point? What once set you free is the the cell for your crimes
Why does love hurt? I'm never going to allow it cause me pain
What is the point? I've hardened my soul so I'm not hurt again

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Stronger Without You

I'm stronger than my past self
I can feel strength in my veins
I used to stand beside death
Now my soul's cleansed of my pains

My words controlled when spoken
And my thoughts are clearer now
My spirit once was broken
But is mended with a vow

That I'll never let another
Step inside my world again
I'll never let no other
Be the centre of my brain

So I'm walking on my journey
But I know not where it leads
My soul yearns and is hungry
For the fulfilments it needs

And I know it'll be forever
If I choose to be this way
I'll tell myself that it's better
So loneliness goes away

And it might not be the best choice
But it will not cause me pain
And I'm glad not to hear your voice
Hope we'll neer meet again

Still it gets quiet without you
When I'm back within my walls
But it's the best path to go through
So forget we knew at all

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

If

If I told you that I always think of you
Each and every day, and in all that I do?
If I said what i felt inside of my soul
Would you look at me and tell me I should go?

If I dressed my best, would you think I was cool
Or would you look at me with disdain like a fool?
If I should come close would you feel butterflies
Or back off from me, with despise in your eyes?

If I were to touch you, hold you by your hand
Would you try to remind me that I'm not your man?
If we were to meet in the future one day
Would you carry on, walk past me on your way?

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Ready For Revolution

I'm ready if you are ready to begin a revolution
Seems it's hard for some to realize there's no other solution
I'm taking no more of this crap, I'm ready to take my position
On the frontline, where it's at, and confront all the institutions

You can see it in the eye of the enemy that there's fear
But today we're not moving, it's make or brake, and it ends here
In the eye of a real panther, are images of our dead
And the pain of our forefathers make our eyes rage bloodshot red

In the midst of of all the chaos in the world are urban soldiers
Daily watching and preparing, as our souls grow dark and colder
Patiience running out, let's filter out the cowards in our regime
March into the warzone, fired up, begin the armagaeddon

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Incomplete Reflections...

I used to be in darkness, I was feeling so way down
Would write a lot of letters, I've got nothing to say now
Would swim in seas of sadness, hoped to melt into the ground
Things started to get better, don't know how, but did somehow

Was so afraid that I could not live in this life without you
I saw my fears, afraid to confront them, but knew I had to

I walked the path of lost souls, it was dangerous
I had to see a lot of things that my anger cost...

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Things Have Changed

You're looking for a change,
Well I hope you can find your season
Don't think I'll be a fool,
And keep on waiting here believing
Round here things rearranged,
But don't think you are the real reason
If you think I'm the same
Then it's yourself that you're deceiving

Don't stop just keep on walking,
I've got nothing further to say
We're grown and time has gone too long,
Like your name is yesterday
I'm not phased by your mocking,
'Cause for pain, I'm ever ready
I'm focused on my missions,
My steps guided, slow and steady

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Regrets/Reflections

Sometimes, like now, I'm thinking, of the fact that I'm here
Things I have cut in my life, my bad ways and my hair
I'm focused like I've never experienced before
Wish I had taken this path 'bout seven years before

I wish that I'd never met you,
But sometimes I'm glad that I did
I'm sorry that I'd hurt you
And for all of my sinful deeds
I'm glad that I never see you
But sometimes I wish I do
But what could I even tell you
It's best, me, you walk through

Feels like I'm living underwater
Pulling myself out the gutter
Past my regrets that I'd hurt her
Could have had some sons or daughters
Made a lot of wrong decisions
Mind lost in so much confusion
Was so hard for all to reason
It's all done, it's a new season

So I'm moving on now with my life
Without whom I'd thought'd be my wife
My eyes are clear, my soul feels strong
And alone I'm moving along
I've wasted time on my regrets
I've only time now to reflect
In interludes while I progress
You're distant memory growing less

If I were to be asked if I don't love you
If I were to be asked if I still love you
If I were on the spot, told to answer honestly
Then I would tell them that my answer would be...

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Walking The Path...(A Short Poem)

I'm grown to adapt to the sound of the echos
My footsteps in constance directing where I go

My head in a deep state of inner reflection
Contemplating words of the wise, their perceptions

The path is a dark one, unknown things in my way
In search of a way to be free on that due day...

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Hope You're Good...

I don't know what to say to you
You don't know what I have been through
I'm making progress in my life
Through tough trials, I have survived

You still cross my mind now and then
But feel no emotions within
I hope you're well, and doing good
Make the most of life, like you should

I hear you've been around the town
And for a while, were not around
But still regardless of your deeds
I'm focused on my future's needs

I guess it's for the best, I'm glad
I feel no pain, I'm never sad
Without you I've not missed a thing
I've simply embraced what life brings...

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Black Guerillas: Wake Up.

When will we wake from our slumber?
Daily we drag ourselves under
When will we rumble like thunder
March into battle fields yonder?

When will we train our young soldiers
Mould them as they're growing older?
When shall we stand as a nation
Combat mental segregation?

Let's all utilize our powers
Raging inside, train for hours
Feed our brains with history sour
Till above all, knowledge towers

When shall we stand firm and solid?
Face obstacles, evil, sordid
When shall we stop to feel sorry
For ourselves, and for cash, hurry?

We are our own foes without laws
Our selfishness, our major flaw
Aimlessness seems to be our fate
When will we wake up, concentrate?

We are only slaves to mindstates
It's us that the foe decimates
When shall the scales fall from our eyes?
When shall we, as guerillas, rise?

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Hmmm...

I wait under the tree, daydream of what it'd be
A bleak future I see, that fades inside of me

I sit upon a rock, here in this world I'm stuck
Reflect on all my luck, and the chord that you've struck

I stroll along the path, away from all my wrath
Fresh just as from a bath, I'll let you do the math

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

A Reflective Dream

My soul was troubled, pained and weak
Lost sight of what I'm meant to seek
My mind was overcast with stress
And thoughts complex and fathomless

And so I found a place alone
To lay my tired, weary bones
Soon I was lost to time in sleep
And so I dreamt, as I fell deep

I stumbled into fields of thorn
That cut me deep, left my skin torn
And looked into a sky so dark
Empty of stars dead of their spark

I looked around, as I wondered
What dead world was this, till yonder
By a dying tree sat a ghoul
Who fed off corpses rid of souls

Our eyes were locked in a fixed gaze
And I was thrown into a maze
Of a life full of hate and wrath
Once care-free, had begun to rot

I becamed locked inside a heart
Filled with pent-up grudges in parts
That had become so muddled up
I could not breathe, prayed it would stop

And then the gaze suddenly broke
As I jumped from my sleep, awoke
The night was still young, dark and thick
Defeaned by my breathes, coming quick

It took a while for me to grasp
That it was me, it was my past
I pondered who the being could be
Then saw, in fact, that it was me

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Detached

Numbness, and detachment from life
Unreal is the fact I'm alive
A surreal state of mind I'm in
A spirit, soul or human being?
Retracting from contact with all
Lower my head within these walls
Knowing not what or who to call
Seems each step leads to my downfall

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Pain

You've hurt me to the point I'm numb
Made me like a wretch in the slums
You've served me bowls of immense pain
You've shown who you are, clear and plain

You punished me hard for my deeds
Despite our years, and our 'lost seeds'
You've shown me pain beyond nightmares
And yet still you say that you care

How much more of this should I take?
Where I am pushed until I break
My heart is shattered, torn apart
In breaking me, you played your part

I'm done with all this hurt you've caused
And yes, I'm dealing with my flaws
So to your dismay, I've survived
No room left for pain in my life

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Urban Warrior

In the midst of evil forces
And the devil's deadly causes
I'm focusing now on my strengths
And on no man shall I depend

I stand my ground, and shed no tear
When face to face with all my fears
The pain I've felt's enough to wear
My soul till I drown in despair

The soles of my sore feet are worn
The skin of my flesh, bruised and torn
But still inside, my spirit stands
Against works of the devil's plans

I'm but a soul stuck in the midst
Of arrows fired from the beast
But I stay, battling through this war
A silent, urban warrior

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Close To The Edge

Evidently I'm a ghost of my former self
Every morning I wake up with the face of death
Feeling drained and empty of spiritual wealth
Picturing my cold corpse underneath a wreath

The world darkens my visions, I walk alone
Fighting evil spirits that surround my dome
In a constant battle, failing on my own
Feeeling guilt like I'm reaping seeds that I've sown

Pushing loved ones afar, oblivious to pain
Wondering what I'd look like with blown out brains
And I walk to the edge of the bridge and stand
Looking down to a fate that will end God's plans

A new weapon, but this one is for myself
Staring at the cold beast, sitting on the shelf
And my eyes close shut as I make a choice
To walk free from my pain, or to heed the voice

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Struggling Within

When I sleep, it's deeper than usual, without dreams
No visions or nightmares, no waking up shouting
My mind still feels troubled, I cannot sleep soundly
As I sink deeper, I block all that's about me

Away from distractions, avoiding temptations
Backed into a corner from pain and frustrations
I anticipate solitude and confinement
And try to control my emotions in silence

My walks are a breath of fresh air from my troubles
And I'm deep in thought as I face my life's hurdles
But moments of low feelings cloud my embarkments
And I find myself sinking into the darkness

My heart is an empty compartment of my soul
My mind is challenged with battles only I know
My nightmares have crossed into the world of the real
And now I must face them, no matter how I feel

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Fighting Love

Why do you make me feel like I hate you when I don't
Why do you play these games with my mind and pull a front
Each time I try to pull you close, I'm drawn further away
Sometimes I wonder if it's worth the stress, if I should stay

I'm tryin to make decisions because the future looks blurry
Don't want to make mistakes, so I'm no longer in a hurry
I want to take things slow, so make your mind up, let me know
Because we do not know where we will both be tomorrow

We've spent some years together, and we've been through stormy weathers
We promised to each other that we'd be as one forever
So why the act of coldness, are you trying to let it wither
'Cause when I try to forget you, my love for you just gets deeper

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Patience

Now I must learn to be patient
And let God do his maintenance
On my heart and that of yours too
Until we both have made it through

I must maintain silence for now
Give one some time to think, allow
The matters of the heart to heal
And be gentle with how you feel

I must be calm, patiently wait
For however long it might take
I cannot afford to frustrate
A delicate time, or it breaks

They say patience is a virtue
I must apply it, wait for you
So peacefully, calmly, I'll be
Patiently waiting, just for thee

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Xavier

She makes me crawl, like a beggar on the sidewalk
A smile in my heart, even when we have the small talk
She makes me feel like I'm not a man without her
In my mind I hear the sarcasm of distant laughters

So on I walk, with my head under a dark cloud
I hide in shame, without her I can not feel proud
She burns my emotions like a house that's on fire
Raging with passion, brings me lower, takes me higher

So is this love or another infatuation
The thoughts of her linger in my meditations
Just like a virus spreading in my conversations
She makes me hunger for her love in deep frustration

She makes me feel like i cannot live without her
Like if she is not there, my life is a disaster
So am I in limbo, or is this just an illusion?
She will not ever set me free from this confusion

Her absence makes me feel alone and paranoid
And when she is gone, my heart is left with a dark void
She says that we bring out the worst out of each other
She makes me feel that for me, there is no other

And through this turmoil I forget that I'm a young man
That I have the strength to forget her in an instance
Can I break free from the chains she's put around me?
Oh sweet Xavier, she's my bliss and my misery

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Fool For You

You know I'd search the world for you
Travel galaxies to find you
Wait till my life ends just for you
Because I'm such a fool for you

You know I'd change my world around
Maintain silence, utter no sound
I'd save all my love just for you
Because I'm such a fool for you

You know my heart, you know my soul
You know for you, how far I'd go
Run miles on ends to rescue you
Because I'm such a fool for you

You know my love will take them blame
My love for you does not feel shame
For I feel pride and joy for you
Because I'm such a fool for you

You know by the seashore I'd wait
For you, though you might turn up late
or not at all, I'd wait for you
Because I'm such a fool for you

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

My Letter

I know that I do not deserve
A thing from you, because it serves
Me right because of what I did
I ought to pay hard for my deeds

But please remember, I'm human
I made mistakes, I'm but a man
And while we're here, both you and I
Let us both use the chance to try

And work things out, So please forgive
me for my sins, because I grieve
For the loss of what's important
The love I had, because I can't

And won't go back to how I was
I'm changing all my ways because
I want to be a better man
And for you do all that I can

To show you that people do change
And so have I, it might feel strange
To see me act without those crimes
But we will both heal well, with time

My words are all I have, but true
Until I have the chance to do
The right things, give me the chance to
Show and prove my deep love for you

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Lonely Nights

Every night I sit and I hope
Seconds feel like years, hard to cope
And I'm reminded of my sins
As moments pass, tears fall, waiting

So here tonight, I sit and wait
Thinking deeply about my fate
If I'm destined to stay alone
Pay for my past until I'm gone

Midnight draws close, I shut my eyes
Go to my bed, on it I lie
My face stays calm, but my heart weeps
Until I cry myself to sleep

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Passionate Kiss

So passionate, was our first kiss
That left my soul in utter bliss
So tender, gentle, were your lips
So intriguing, like an eclipse
So captivated by your eyes
Searching my soul for all that lies
Deep down inside, I surely miss
Our first ever passionate kiss

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Tired

I'm tired of pushing people away from me.
I'm tired of losing good friends.
I'm tired of people avoiding me.
I'm tired of being alone.

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Shameful Brothers

I watch you make fools of yourselves
Ending up dead, lost or in cells
You sicken me with your actions
You act like your sanity's gone

What makes you think that you are hot
The jewellery, girls and the lot
Are only temporary things
You stain your soul with all this sin

You make me want to turn my back
On you because you make us slack
You stop us from moving forward
You are not tough, you're a coward

You need to stop, step back and think
Realize your deeds make you stink
On the inside, so clean your soul
Decide which path you're going to go

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Cogitative Wanderer

Through motions of the wind I move
The songs of demons were my grove
The spinning has stopped, here I sit
Contemplating the end. Is it

My purpose here to show the way
One should not go, and turn away?
Am I here to endure these tests
Until my body lays to rest?

How much longer is there to go?
I lack the power to oppose
The aura of depression's gloom
As it fills my soul, I'm consumed

Time rushes by, so silently
Still moving in the dark blindly
Meditating and pondering
Searching for answers, wandering

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Learning

So many things to learn about
Myself, to keep from being a tout
So much advice to adhere to
And apply in the things I do
Less talking and more listening
Words of such wisdom seeping in
And slowly changing the way I
Think about life, before I die

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Hide From You

The things I would do for you
Now I'm hiding away from you
Wait till ends of eternity
Walk paths of pain,severity

Silence constantly by my side
and so from you my love I hide
If I say I don't care, I've lied,
my love for you I've tried to hide

A mask I wear, a sleek disguise
Removed emotions from my eyes
You won't know if I'm mersmerised
For what I feel for you, I hide

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Transition

Existing in a rapture, I relished in my capture
I feasted like a vulture, and ceased in growing mature
Feeding on the kindness, attitude was mindless
Unknown to the fact I was moving in my blindness

I'd hoarded on my past, and a dark shadow was cast
Over my mind unknown to the fact my joy won't last
Time was flying fast, family watched me aghast
Unmoved by my actions, lazed like life was a blast

Waking became a labour, turned to you as my saviour
Weakened in my spirit, getting worse in my behaviour
I simulated strength, but a mask was all I put on
Transparent was my soul, all my thoughts became illusions

I started to opress, I could not deal with my stress
All faith I had was less, and my anger was supressed
The bond became bondage, felt I was in a cage
Kept feeding all the anger, paranoia and rage

Unknown all along my life was being orchestrated
All up to the point when we became seperated
No chance for negiotating, my life has been designated
To lead and not to fall, spirit in me stimulated

By someone far greater than the idol that I worshipped
The One who created me, my Father and my Lordship
Was hiding from my problems, but He tore apart my shelter
Enabled me to send my fears all running helter skelter

I thought my life was over, my heart drowned in the damage
He told me I would make it, and I'd do much more than manage
All I thought was significant became irrelevant things
Unimaginable became real, I saw what life brings

Now my eyes are open, I'm detached, empty of worry
I'm passing through this world, all this is just temporary
Patience, perseverance, silence are my monetary
Pain will be memory when I lay in the cememetary

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Reality Check

As I ponder 'bout my life and things now that you are gone
I realize I need to check myself, it's time to move on
I know your friends will probably look at me with disgust and scorn
But all they see's a ghost, I'm a new man, but my heart is torn

Progression is the goal in my life, I'm really focused now
I know there will be hard times ahead, but I'll make it somehow
Sometimes the thought crosses my mind, wish you were here by my side
But that's a dream that I've destroyed 'cause of my sins and my pride

Maybe one day we'll see each other, you'll get a chance to discover
That I'm a better man than others and you'll search no further
But I know you can find a new guy one way or another
And even though we meet then I shall act like I'm not bothered

So now I'm healing slowly, and the days are getting longer
Inside I wish you'd come back and see we're not getting younger
If you find someone better,and we don't end up together
I'll keep on moving but I'd rather stay alone forever

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Love, Protection

You're a baby in this cruel world
You are the one that I adore
We'll watch sunsets at every shore
Know that my heart's forever yours

Reach for my hand so tenderly
We promise till eternity
That our love is forever kept
Wash away the tears that we wept

The fire of our bond burns so fierce
Watch all our enemies disperse
For our strength defies rules of earth
Daily we experience rebirth

Save you from hands of loneliness
I'll magnify your loveliness
Keep your comfort under my wings
Shield you from all the cold world brings

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Bleed For You

I dreamt of you every night, my soul was restless
I waited for you in fright, I was so depressed
I tore out my heart for you, So you'd save my soul
I walked through the darkest paths, Still your heart said no

I'm walking alone right now, My heart in my palms
It's beating, slowly in pain, Save me if you can
But now I know I've lost you, And it hurts to know
That now you are gone for good, not back tomorrow

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Searching

We search for something we can't find
Try to leave all our woes behind
We hurt, we cry searching for peace
All we have's not enough to please

We roam, we meet, wear out our feet
But our trials all face defeat
In search of something, fear to quit
To make us feel fulfilled, complete

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Sticking With God

I'm living in a time where things are changing all around me
The world is slowly fading, scales have fallen, now I can see
Nothing on this earth really seems to move me or astound me
All I can see are evil temptations that do surround me

I'm keeping to myself, don't want to be another victim
I'm keeping all my faith in God so I am done predicting
What my future holds for me because I don't know what it does
All I know is that as of now I live for God and His cause

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Parting Ways

I'm glad you act the way you do
You must think that I am a fool
You feel the world revolves round you
So do your thing, I'll keep my cool

Let's do things your way, keep afar
Go live your life and have a blast
I won't worry about where you are
Let us see how long your way lasts

I have a life, although I'm hurt
Been hurt before, you're not the worst
But this time I'll forgive, move on
So my part has been played and done

We'll meet again, and that's for sure
But it'll be hard to find a cure
For the damage that you have caused
Because there will be no more us

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Working Things Out

I'm comming to terms with the fact
You might not love me, and that's that
Seems you don't even want a pact
Do you think of me where you're at?
I worry about you everyday
Feels like you're pushing me away
Trying to stay far away from me
Avoid any chances we'll see

I'm so confused, and I feel stuck
Feels like I'm running out of luck
And only God can lead the way
Help me grow like the past few days
I only pray that you would call
Stop this, sort things once and for all
'Cuase all this distance makes me sad
Like because I'm not there, you're glad

I'm trying to be strong inside
My emotions are hard to hide
Next time we see, I will be cool
Not like last time, acting the fool
I don't know if you love me still
Why don't we talk, and keep it real
I am not trying to cause you pain
I'd like to stop this, start again

Each day you don't call I feel stress
'Cause it feels like you love me less
I'd like to know what's on your mind
If only I could, I'd rewind
the hands of time, but I cannot
I'm going to need patience, a lot
And leave all this into God's hands
Hope you call, let's know where we stand

I'm here for you no matter what
In all I do, you're in my thoughts
I care for you, you know this much
I yearn for you, just for a touch
Are we never going to see again
Or work together through this pain
Let us not throw those years away
Let's make it worhwhile, I do pray

That God touches you to forgive
And let's start afresh, let love live
'Cause we'll be stronger in the end
Lovers, partners, the deepest friends
Right now it feels I'm on the brink
But I will give you space to think
Let's work things out and let us be
Stronger together, you and me

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Giving Space

I really don't know what to say
That'll change your mind, and make you stay
I really don't know what to do
I can't tell if you love me too
I want you to be happy here
Right by my side, show that I care
But if you really need some space
I'm ready to grant you that grace

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Inner Battles In My Zone

I'm fighting urges to regress
And fall in a state of depress
-sion where I'm not able to cope
With emotions, dwelling on hope

I'm about to regenerate
Renew my soul and seal my fate
With prospects brighter than my past
To live a life that's pure and chaste

Preferring to be on my own
And explicate in my own zone
Free my soul from egoism
Touch other lives from my prison

My ethics are programmed to ster
Me away from ever going there
In the midst of lives, thinking deep
Fighting demons before I sleep

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Forgetting You

I'm walking away from it all, I cannot take this pain
I don't know if we'll ever get a chance to meet again
I have taken my heart from my chest, taking it with me
Placed it inside a box, and buried it beneath the sea

I am not made for earth so I'm on my way back to home
Forget this person that you ever thought that you had known
My soul is dead on the inside, I cannot hear your voice
I could not change your heart, therefore you've left me with no choice

If we should meet again I will not be the guy you knew
He's gone for good, chances to save him, all away you threw
My life has been in shambles and it's time to get reborn
Because the heart I've buried has been broken and is torn

If you could do things differently i really doubt you would
You can't deny, you know that I did the best that I could
But now it's time to shut the world I thought I knew and go
And hope and pray for me there is a better tomorrow

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Low Self-Esteem

I feel insure about myself
I doubt I'm meant to have great wealth
I think lowly of who I am
These thoughts in my head are all crammed

I'm trying to upgrade myself
Instead of sitting on the shelf
I try to smile in public view
If only these sad thoughts they knew

I want to be a better man
I'm trying to do the best I can
Rid my head of these thoughts, all lies
Make sure i keep my head up high

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Here Without You

A piece of my heart is now gone
Because of the wrong things I've done
My soul feels hollow, lost the spark
My heart broken, I'm in the dark

Guilt and sadness caused lack of sleep
Confusion, pain, and I would weep
Unprepared for a change in times
I could have sworn the world was mine

Now silence, sadness I endure
As to our fate I am unsure
But changes made within my soul
Direct me where I need to go

So many thoughts of you I have
For your sweet love, my soul is starved
Moments, I'm cool, some of despair
Dealing with the fact you're not here

So many choices to debate
But for your love, I'll surely wait
To be with you, and start anew
Like sunrise on the morning dew

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Feeling Down

Depression kicks in now and then
I walk amongst a thousand men
My heart still beats, my soul feels dead
A million thoughts run through my head

My soul is bare for all to see
Enemies rub thier hands with glee
I know I will be hurt again
But my soul feels numb to the pain

What can I do, retreat or face
My fears, I can't be a disgrace
I must confront and must challenge
Obstacles, no need for revenge

My time on earth is short and quick
To go through this I am the pick
In silence I must keep my stength
Through pain I must endure the length

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Be Free From Pain

Are you happy with how you are?
Can you say now that you've gone far?
Have you tried reaching for the stars?
Are you still tending to the scars?

Let go of it all, time will heal
The pain inside that you now feel
But don't dwell and make time stand still
Inside your mind, accept what's real

What's done is done, forget the past
Forgive trespassors who have cast
A doubt over your mind, think fast
Let go and you'll be free at last

So free your soul of worthless pain
You have so much in life to gain
Focus your mind and just refrain
From dwelling in the past again

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Self-Reflection 1

I'm in a mindstate where I'm deep in analysis
Recovering from a broken heart, so sorting out the pieces
Spent the past few years not knowing what peace is
Hating and raging while my soul inside deceases

Anger and pride were my downfall and my weakness
Fell into state, now I'm climbing out the deepness
Coming out of pain, no more nights that are spent sleepless
Changing on the inside, leaving all enemies speechless

Waiting on the one person that I would love to witness
The product of my changes and experience all this goodness
Enjoying what I can about life, tasting the sweetness
Maintaining my mindstate through pain, sadness even sickness

I had to check myself and I realised it was time
To start achieving goals, and start maturing my mind
I was living a life where my actions where all crimes
Now i am on a mission to make good of what I find

In this world that's temporary, nothing here is mine
May not gain the finer things of life, but that is fine
What matters are my actions here, be helpful and be kind
Always maintain my focus at all times while on the grind

Now my soul's clearer and it shines well, and it gleams
Not looking back on what I've done or where my mind had been
I spend more time in silence, trying to make real of my dreams
Working harder on my inner being, making it clean

I think back on the years I went through tough times as a teen
Remember bad experiances and all the things i'd seen
I've gone from holding things inside, being crual and mean
To being more of a man than I ever could have been

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Thinking Of Change

Thinking about my life right now
I must pull through all this somehow
I'm travelling through a dark tunnel
Feel like my heart's being put through hell

Thinking about ways to progress
Keep my mind off worry and stress
No space for pain, feels good and strange
I'm making progress and a change

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Cold Stare

The coldest stare was what I got
That made me feel sick in my guts
Knew there was something I had lost
Through lack of showing care and trust

I lay awake remembering
That cold look left me trembling
That old me's gone, no more again
My heart's now been made numb to pain

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Each Day With Pain

I take each day now as it comes
Achieve daily goals till I'm done
Then silence clouds me on my own
I'm reminded I am alone

Each day I wake to face the worst
Ready for all, so I'm not hurt
Yet each heartbeat brings pain inside
Then I try to focus my mind

Each day in silence I perform
My daily tasks as I'm transformed
From what I once was weeks ago
Letting memories from the past go

Still no matter how hard I try
I'm hurting still, and that's no lie
My character shines where I'm at
But hides inside a broken heart

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A New Day, On My Way

A brand new day, a fresh new start
An aura of peace in my heart
My lips are shut, except to praise
How I'm transforming, I'm amazed
My steps are guided, I'm on track
Gradually bring innocence back
Into my life, keep my focus
On God alone, 'cause it's just us

My head stays down, I'm but a sheep
I'm done with sad days, when I'd weep
I'm growing stronger everyday
spiritually, I'm on my way
To something better than this life
Not cars, money, even a wife
Beyond death, an eternity
I'm on my way there, come with me

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Tough Times Ahead

As I lay thinking, in my bed
I see challenging times ahead
Tough times that will challenge my faith
For pain, my heart has no more space

And so I man up, and prepare
For a big spiritual warfare
That's taking place inside my soul
As daily, I am trying to grow

No time for games, no time to stare
My future starts with me, fight here
So I must face what lies ahead
And not be weak, be strong instead

I say a prayer, and close my eyes
For finally, I've realised
That I am here for a short while
And then I break into a smile

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Fighting To Improve

I find myself facing my fears
Before I played like I didn't care
Now here I am, so deep in thought
Of what I might've forever lost

I'm fighting inside with myself
To stabalize my mental health
And be the man that I should be
And then become a better me

My heart is braced, I come prepared
Of all my sins, I am aware
I'm here to stay and take this road
Follow the paths that the Lord shows

I no longer dwell in the past
I'm seeing things clealy at last
I'm focused, yet still think of you
Soon you will see my words are true

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Ready For Whatever

I am not crap, I'm not a fool
I will not fret or lose my cool
I'll keep my head up, walk the path
And get rid of anger and wrath

There is no way I will turn back
The door is closed, no time to slack
I'm ready, Lord, for what you'll bring
I am your servant, you're my King

So lead me to the path of light
Through me let your glory shine bright
Lord let our relationship grow
All I need to learn, let me know

Help me be strong, and face my fears
Without ev'n an ounce of despair
Dry all my tears, fill me with peace
Let my life blossom in your bliss

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Reminiscing Dreams

I was walking in a dream where the whole world seemed
To be free and redeemed, sky blue , grass green
As I walked on my way I could see past days
From my past where the kids in my school would play

And I walked through the years, and I dropped salt tears
Watching us, it was clear we lived life with no care
So I walked into moments we were adolescents
Lessons from life learnt, parents backs got bent

Some friends from those days lost along the way
Souls gathered in a world, pray at peace with the Lord
And so life got weary, our eyes got more teary
And our crosses got heavy, and the world got scary

Tried to call out to us, save us from being lost
But our youths couldn't hear, some of us paid the cost
And the clouds closed in covered all I could I see
So I contiued my journey to where we could be free

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Dying Inside

I've become lost in world that seems unreal to me
Feel I'm losing my mind 'cause the devil's deceiving me
I feel like all my enemies are trying to get rid of me
Maybe I'm in the abyss cos life's not forgiven me

Left here in my hole, I'm not a force to be reckoned with
The talk that I'd succeed is no more, now it's just a myth
Alone in this cave, haven't shaved, shadow of myself
Something in my mind's making me anticipate death

Who then can be bothered to save me from my wretchedness
Free me from my chains of my sins, and then make me blessed
Life for me's a dark dream, a nightmare, I'm such a mess
Faith in myself dies by the second, getting less

Heaven's like a wall, no way in, help me find a way
Lacking in my soul the real food, haven't prayed for days
Laying in my cave, dead inside, withering away
Watching as my hopes and my dreams slowly fade away

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Infatuation

We wait in a world of imagination
For a hope to carry on
We live a dream of fascination
Before we know it we'll be gone
We are lost here in the wilderness
Seems there's hope left for us

Holding on to what lacks existence
Until the little left is lost
You shall return to your castle
And I'll retreat to the shadows
Though the heart may seem so cold
Desire burns deep below

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)