Love & Infatuation

I was never in love with you, it was emotions raging through
A long term infatuation, that's lingered on since you were gone
I had to dig within my soul, faced turmoils you will never know
Reflection, face to face with what, was worse than I had ever thought

See you were not the one for me, just a medium to set me free
You were just used to save my life, it just took me to hold that knife
My soul was already engulfed, in flames with sick guilt in my guts
'Feelings' for you weren't enough, to fight demons I felt were tough

It took a long while but I've learnt, love and what I felt are different
What was missing from both of us, was a relationship with God
I am not perfect yet, I know, that I've still a long way to go
But this revelation has helped, me understand better, myself

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)