Lost Seeds (Revamped)

I did not give a single chance, to hear the words you had to say
I put my foot down, held my stance, I just wanted us to part ways
I thought ahead, I had foresight, and felt what we'd have was a threat
You wanted to show me the light, letting you go is my regret

I put a lot of effort in, had sleepless nights, drowned in my thoughts
I searched my soul, but fear within hardened my heart and wrenched my guts
I looked at you, you wanted me, you had a lot of love to give
But my bad past experiences clouded my judgement to believe

I have enough troubles to face, why should I take on yours as well?
I did not want to hear your case, your heart was downcast, I could tell
Sometimes at night I wonder if, our relationship would have worked?
Sometimes I ponder my choices, as bad as this cold heartless world

There's not a day that passes by, when I am lost in thoughts of you
Knowing now that you are with Him, leaves me envious, but we are through
I was afraid to be the man, I was too afraid to be there
I thought that you would understand, my fears were too deep to be shared

All my words are meaningless now, becuase you are no longer mine
I wish things were different somehow, but it's too late to turn back time

I just wanted to let you know, daily for you my heart does bleed
I should never have let you go, now only my guilt I can feed
I pray someday that you'll forgive what I have done, my evil deeds
And I hope that you rest in peace, my three lost seeds, my unborn kids

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)