Entrapped in this prison, soul weakened, submerging
The death of innocence, the loss of a virgin
The cries for help silenced, the tears shed while sleeping
The holes in my heart through which the demons creep in
The anger that lead to destruction, a breakdown
The self-hate, the pain, the emotions, awake now
Can't sleep for some peace, the insomnia, the sadness
That overwhelms my soul, alone in the darkness
The fear of the future, lacking motivation
The procastinations, awaiting salvation
The logs in my eyes that are heavy, the burdens
Of inner shame, memories that can't be forgotten
The door constantly locked, the window that stays closed
The words that are written leaving my soul exposed
Confusion, frustration, the lack of sanity
Awaiting more chaos in life, calamity
The weakness instilled in the heart can't be measured
The smile on the mask while outside, the peer pressure
The lack of forgiveness for myself, unworthy
The fear of death lurking, the stress and the worries
The visions, the nightmares, the voices that whisper
The roots of the tree of depression grow deeper
The mental imagery, daydreams, disillusions
The thoughts that cross this mental state of confusion
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Monday, 30 November 2009
Wednesday, 25 November 2009
Spare Me Of Love
You expect me to be a person I'm not
To engage emotions that now in me, rot
A prisoner of the kind of love set adrift
Into a world I've accepted doesn't exist
They tell me to open up, give love a try
Why risk being hurt by more pain and more lies
They say that I can not tell what the future holds
But experience shys me from what I've been told
You expect me to be engaged and involved
When to me love is a dark mystery unsolved
Why swim with the currents of love that evolves
From uncontrolled emotions soon to dissolve
Dissolve into nothing but salt tasting tears
Stirred with blood from a heart now ridden with fears
Why risk starving for someone who might not care
Why drain your soul of peace? I know, I've been there
So free me of promises of what love brings
Silence all the songs of emotions you sing
For numbness protects me from love and it's sting
And saves me future tears for my eyes to wring
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
To engage emotions that now in me, rot
A prisoner of the kind of love set adrift
Into a world I've accepted doesn't exist
They tell me to open up, give love a try
Why risk being hurt by more pain and more lies
They say that I can not tell what the future holds
But experience shys me from what I've been told
You expect me to be engaged and involved
When to me love is a dark mystery unsolved
Why swim with the currents of love that evolves
From uncontrolled emotions soon to dissolve
Dissolve into nothing but salt tasting tears
Stirred with blood from a heart now ridden with fears
Why risk starving for someone who might not care
Why drain your soul of peace? I know, I've been there
So free me of promises of what love brings
Silence all the songs of emotions you sing
For numbness protects me from love and it's sting
And saves me future tears for my eyes to wring
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Friday, 9 October 2009
Love & Infatuation
I was never in love with you, it was emotions raging through
A long term infatuation, that's lingered on since you were gone
I had to dig within my soul, faced turmoils you will never know
Reflection, face to face with what, was worse than I had ever thought
See you were not the one for me, just a medium to set me free
You were just used to save my life, it just took me to hold that knife
My soul was already engulfed, in flames with sick guilt in my guts
'Feelings' for you weren't enough, to fight demons I felt were tough
It took a long while but I've learnt, love and what I felt are different
What was missing from both of us, was a relationship with God
I am not perfect yet, I know, that I've still a long way to go
But this revelation has helped, me understand better, myself
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
A long term infatuation, that's lingered on since you were gone
I had to dig within my soul, faced turmoils you will never know
Reflection, face to face with what, was worse than I had ever thought
See you were not the one for me, just a medium to set me free
You were just used to save my life, it just took me to hold that knife
My soul was already engulfed, in flames with sick guilt in my guts
'Feelings' for you weren't enough, to fight demons I felt were tough
It took a long while but I've learnt, love and what I felt are different
What was missing from both of us, was a relationship with God
I am not perfect yet, I know, that I've still a long way to go
But this revelation has helped, me understand better, myself
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Sunday, 27 September 2009
Lost Seeds (Revamped)
I did not give a single chance, to hear the words you had to say
I put my foot down, held my stance, I just wanted us to part ways
I thought ahead, I had foresight, and felt what we'd have was a threat
You wanted to show me the light, letting you go is my regret
I put a lot of effort in, had sleepless nights, drowned in my thoughts
I searched my soul, but fear within hardened my heart and wrenched my guts
I looked at you, you wanted me, you had a lot of love to give
But my bad past experiences clouded my judgement to believe
I have enough troubles to face, why should I take on yours as well?
I did not want to hear your case, your heart was downcast, I could tell
Sometimes at night I wonder if, our relationship would have worked?
Sometimes I ponder my choices, as bad as this cold heartless world
There's not a day that passes by, when I am lost in thoughts of you
Knowing now that you are with Him, leaves me envious, but we are through
I was afraid to be the man, I was too afraid to be there
I thought that you would understand, my fears were too deep to be shared
All my words are meaningless now, becuase you are no longer mine
I wish things were different somehow, but it's too late to turn back time
I just wanted to let you know, daily for you my heart does bleed
I should never have let you go, now only my guilt I can feed
I pray someday that you'll forgive what I have done, my evil deeds
And I hope that you rest in peace, my three lost seeds, my unborn kids
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
I put my foot down, held my stance, I just wanted us to part ways
I thought ahead, I had foresight, and felt what we'd have was a threat
You wanted to show me the light, letting you go is my regret
I put a lot of effort in, had sleepless nights, drowned in my thoughts
I searched my soul, but fear within hardened my heart and wrenched my guts
I looked at you, you wanted me, you had a lot of love to give
But my bad past experiences clouded my judgement to believe
I have enough troubles to face, why should I take on yours as well?
I did not want to hear your case, your heart was downcast, I could tell
Sometimes at night I wonder if, our relationship would have worked?
Sometimes I ponder my choices, as bad as this cold heartless world
There's not a day that passes by, when I am lost in thoughts of you
Knowing now that you are with Him, leaves me envious, but we are through
I was afraid to be the man, I was too afraid to be there
I thought that you would understand, my fears were too deep to be shared
All my words are meaningless now, becuase you are no longer mine
I wish things were different somehow, but it's too late to turn back time
I just wanted to let you know, daily for you my heart does bleed
I should never have let you go, now only my guilt I can feed
I pray someday that you'll forgive what I have done, my evil deeds
And I hope that you rest in peace, my three lost seeds, my unborn kids
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Saturday, 12 September 2009
Grave Thoughts
I sat by my tombstone, the moment was forever
I dreamt of the times when I thought we'd be together
The folly of my ways, and I never moved forward
As slowly to my day of my death I moved towards
Unknown were the paths to me, though I knew
That if I had fought all, I'd have made it through
Then I wailed in the corpse, suddenly entrapped
By the breathe of death, drowned into the dark
Detached from the land of the living, unawakened
Deep in the slumber of death since when I was taken
The tears of my spirit nurtured flowers at my grave
Through the casket I could see family finally wave
Like a statue by my coffin I sit with my arm akimbo
I ponder what can never be as my soul's lost in limbo
I'm numb in the moment, and this feels like it won't end
Head bowed in regret, seems death is my only friend
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
I dreamt of the times when I thought we'd be together
The folly of my ways, and I never moved forward
As slowly to my day of my death I moved towards
Unknown were the paths to me, though I knew
That if I had fought all, I'd have made it through
Then I wailed in the corpse, suddenly entrapped
By the breathe of death, drowned into the dark
Detached from the land of the living, unawakened
Deep in the slumber of death since when I was taken
The tears of my spirit nurtured flowers at my grave
Through the casket I could see family finally wave
Like a statue by my coffin I sit with my arm akimbo
I ponder what can never be as my soul's lost in limbo
I'm numb in the moment, and this feels like it won't end
Head bowed in regret, seems death is my only friend
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Will I know
Will you free my soul from the pain I know
With no sorrow when I wake tomorrow?
If I leaped from the edge of the highest cliff
Will I fly, will I float just like a leaf?
Should I hide in fear from the world out there
Or should I live my life without nought a care?
Can I have one moment to refresh my soul
To ensure that I'm free of these doubts and ghouls?
Am I here for a reason, will I ever know why
Or am I a scapegoat for all when I die?
Will she eventually come and stay by my side
Is my shoulder the place where her head resides?
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
With no sorrow when I wake tomorrow?
If I leaped from the edge of the highest cliff
Will I fly, will I float just like a leaf?
Should I hide in fear from the world out there
Or should I live my life without nought a care?
Can I have one moment to refresh my soul
To ensure that I'm free of these doubts and ghouls?
Am I here for a reason, will I ever know why
Or am I a scapegoat for all when I die?
Will she eventually come and stay by my side
Is my shoulder the place where her head resides?
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Sleep
Slumber beckons me into realms of dreams
Where messages and visions reside, not as they seem
WHere the unreal feels real but yet seems obscured
By unconscious subconsciousness that is so sure
That one is awake, but yet one's too deep
Into the world of slumber, one's body's asleep
While the soul hasdeparted temporarily gone
Still attached to the body yet has travelled beyond
Where the barriers of what the human eyes can see
Where the carriers convey the spirit where it is free
It's the sleep that I crave, not while I'm i the grave
And until I awaken, to it's grips I'm a slave
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Where messages and visions reside, not as they seem
WHere the unreal feels real but yet seems obscured
By unconscious subconsciousness that is so sure
That one is awake, but yet one's too deep
Into the world of slumber, one's body's asleep
While the soul hasdeparted temporarily gone
Still attached to the body yet has travelled beyond
Where the barriers of what the human eyes can see
Where the carriers convey the spirit where it is free
It's the sleep that I crave, not while I'm i the grave
And until I awaken, to it's grips I'm a slave
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Fear Of Purpose (Incomplete)
An indivudual consisting of embodied systems
Forever is the light that deep inside I must endeavor
To keep me on the right path to the land of distant treasure
Through battles I must fight, and temptations of evil pleasures
In search of peace of mind is what I am primarily here for
Some say what is the purpose? 'Cause life is full of sorrows
As long as there is life there is a purpose for tomorrow
The time to find our reasons and our purposes are borrowed
I know we are all reasons, don't know why, but what do I know?
We're living in a world where unbelievers commit treason
We know their fear of Truth and knowledge is their only reason
The treason is against He that watches us all from heaven
Therefore until that Day we battle on twenty-four seven
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Forever is the light that deep inside I must endeavor
To keep me on the right path to the land of distant treasure
Through battles I must fight, and temptations of evil pleasures
In search of peace of mind is what I am primarily here for
Some say what is the purpose? 'Cause life is full of sorrows
As long as there is life there is a purpose for tomorrow
The time to find our reasons and our purposes are borrowed
I know we are all reasons, don't know why, but what do I know?
We're living in a world where unbelievers commit treason
We know their fear of Truth and knowledge is their only reason
The treason is against He that watches us all from heaven
Therefore until that Day we battle on twenty-four seven
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Thursday, 3 September 2009
A Short Piece
To lay with you and melt in bliss
To fade into eternal peace
To wade into the waters pure
To be with you, of that, I'm sure
To watch the sunset in it's place
Beyond the horizons, we gaze
To stand with you in timelessness
To hold your hand, gently caress
To stay in stillness, with you, share
To share with you this moment here
To free our souls from pain and fears
To be at peace, together, here
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
To fade into eternal peace
To wade into the waters pure
To be with you, of that, I'm sure
To watch the sunset in it's place
Beyond the horizons, we gaze
To stand with you in timelessness
To hold your hand, gently caress
To stay in stillness, with you, share
To share with you this moment here
To free our souls from pain and fears
To be at peace, together, here
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Hidden Emotions
When there is darkness in my heart
When what is left is torn apart
When my soul's exposed and laughed at
When from the pain I can't depart
You live the life of one that's free
But still in chains are all and thee
You say you've found what's right for you
So with what's here what do I do?
The midnight talks of nothingness
The dependances where heads rests
You're far ahead, and out of sight
I rest my head alone tonight
They say there's peace where I am at
They set the rules for me lik facts
Just like a troll, beneath I live
The towering masks while I bereave
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
When what is left is torn apart
When my soul's exposed and laughed at
When from the pain I can't depart
You live the life of one that's free
But still in chains are all and thee
You say you've found what's right for you
So with what's here what do I do?
The midnight talks of nothingness
The dependances where heads rests
You're far ahead, and out of sight
I rest my head alone tonight
They say there's peace where I am at
They set the rules for me lik facts
Just like a troll, beneath I live
The towering masks while I bereave
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Saturday, 15 August 2009
Current State
The poor face the consequences
The rich inflate their finances
The rich prance, the devil dances
The defiant holding their stances
The famous dead milked for their deeds
The end of the world now proceeds
The organizations don't feed
The numerous starving what they need
The idea of a 'home' destroyed
By unplanned babies all deployed
Increased's the rate of unemployed
The chaos here's hard to avoid
The average person stays detached
The plans of the unseen are hatched
The minds of men the evil latched
The wounds endured can not be patched
The media blinds the world to light
The minds of mankind lost in fights
The meek discarded in their plights
The unknown resets what is 'right'
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
The rich inflate their finances
The rich prance, the devil dances
The defiant holding their stances
The famous dead milked for their deeds
The end of the world now proceeds
The organizations don't feed
The numerous starving what they need
The idea of a 'home' destroyed
By unplanned babies all deployed
Increased's the rate of unemployed
The chaos here's hard to avoid
The average person stays detached
The plans of the unseen are hatched
The minds of men the evil latched
The wounds endured can not be patched
The media blinds the world to light
The minds of mankind lost in fights
The meek discarded in their plights
The unknown resets what is 'right'
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Wednesday, 29 July 2009
Still Feel....
I know just what it feels like
To be in love, and that's despite
The warning bells that ring in mind
But you follow your heart this time
When things fall and there's no trust
And deep inside your weak heart hurts
That's when you have to fight, you must
Fight to keep doubt out of your thoughts
Nothing can be said to me
That would ever make me break free
For I think of you constantly
Sometimes thoughts are involuntary
No matter how far I withdraw
My love for you's concrete, like law
It stays upheld though darker times
Despite the fact that you're not mine
You make me feel there is no end
To life and existence, pretend
Like I'm in a world I can't see
Or Feel, but in it I am free
I'm free in you, safe in your arms
With just a touch rage is disarmed
All my struggles at a standstill
An endless love is what I feel
It's true, they say I am the fool
But this time emotions don't rule
My mind, for I'm in full control
I know what I feel, in my soul
They say there's nothing left to say
And life has not let us cross ways
They say that chapter's closed, it's done
But I feel a storm's just begun
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
To be in love, and that's despite
The warning bells that ring in mind
But you follow your heart this time
When things fall and there's no trust
And deep inside your weak heart hurts
That's when you have to fight, you must
Fight to keep doubt out of your thoughts
Nothing can be said to me
That would ever make me break free
For I think of you constantly
Sometimes thoughts are involuntary
No matter how far I withdraw
My love for you's concrete, like law
It stays upheld though darker times
Despite the fact that you're not mine
You make me feel there is no end
To life and existence, pretend
Like I'm in a world I can't see
Or Feel, but in it I am free
I'm free in you, safe in your arms
With just a touch rage is disarmed
All my struggles at a standstill
An endless love is what I feel
It's true, they say I am the fool
But this time emotions don't rule
My mind, for I'm in full control
I know what I feel, in my soul
They say there's nothing left to say
And life has not let us cross ways
They say that chapter's closed, it's done
But I feel a storm's just begun
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Friday, 17 July 2009
World Is Changing
They say the world's full of lots of posssibilities
But it's all hurt and pain and full of more hostilities
Emotions burn it's hard maintain some civility
In a free world that clouds the mind from it's captivity
It's not a global warming, but the weather's colder now
A deadly storm is coming, I sense it's closer somehow
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
But it's all hurt and pain and full of more hostilities
Emotions burn it's hard maintain some civility
In a free world that clouds the mind from it's captivity
It's not a global warming, but the weather's colder now
A deadly storm is coming, I sense it's closer somehow
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
What Do You Want?
It's now of times I see you choose
To try to interrupt, confuse
It's now you choose to hear my voice
Despite the fact you're with your choice
What is it that you want from me
Your plans to hurt won't work on me
You've no reason to cross my way
I thought you planned to stay away
If you plan to bring up past crimes
You're just simply wasting your time
What you seek to destroy's not there
So don't ask questions like you care
I see through your unsettled thoughts
But who you think I am, I'm not
You've no idea battles I've fought
So stick to the fellow you've got
Unless you plan to be mature
Unless I'm sure your words are pure
Till you know what you're calling for
Please don't bother me anymore
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
To try to interrupt, confuse
It's now you choose to hear my voice
Despite the fact you're with your choice
What is it that you want from me
Your plans to hurt won't work on me
You've no reason to cross my way
I thought you planned to stay away
If you plan to bring up past crimes
You're just simply wasting your time
What you seek to destroy's not there
So don't ask questions like you care
I see through your unsettled thoughts
But who you think I am, I'm not
You've no idea battles I've fought
So stick to the fellow you've got
Unless you plan to be mature
Unless I'm sure your words are pure
Till you know what you're calling for
Please don't bother me anymore
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Tuesday, 30 June 2009
Discouraged
I'm sorry I have not acheived
The greater things, like you believed
I would, I'm sorry that I would
Not fight the evil, like I could
Have. If only I had listened
To advices you had given
I would not be here wasting time
Acting like eternity's mine
I find it hard to self reflect
Out of shame, I've no self respect
There's nothing that I have attained
The aimlessness in me remains
I know that I should really start
To break the chains on me apart
But I find myself discouraged
Folks moved on, I'm on the same page
It's time to rethink, strategize
Make plans and work on them, decide
What it is I am here to do
Before my time on earth is through
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
The greater things, like you believed
I would, I'm sorry that I would
Not fight the evil, like I could
Have. If only I had listened
To advices you had given
I would not be here wasting time
Acting like eternity's mine
I find it hard to self reflect
Out of shame, I've no self respect
There's nothing that I have attained
The aimlessness in me remains
I know that I should really start
To break the chains on me apart
But I find myself discouraged
Folks moved on, I'm on the same page
It's time to rethink, strategize
Make plans and work on them, decide
What it is I am here to do
Before my time on earth is through
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Wednesday, 24 June 2009
Free
I sometimes forget you exist
Or existed within my midst
Admist the souls clouded in mists
Of dark thoughts, you were who I missed
I've encountered others, a list
Of failed wastes of time, all dismissed
Still picky 'bout my taste, persist
Lest my fate's caught up with a beast
I'm solo now, still no short-list
Of potential souls to enlist
Blocked so many out that my wrists
Hurt so bad like they're filled with cysts
My dreams of love have been shortlived
Steeming from empty words, deceived
A shallow lifestyle I perceive
From what I thought I had achieved
Yet since the day you prayed I'd leave
I've exhaled freely, now I live
Beyond the boundaries of past griefs
My future I've begun to weave
No more in you, do I believe
But I, myself, for me I breathe
From a life with you, I'm reprieved
Now thoughts of freedom, I conceive
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Or existed within my midst
Admist the souls clouded in mists
Of dark thoughts, you were who I missed
I've encountered others, a list
Of failed wastes of time, all dismissed
Still picky 'bout my taste, persist
Lest my fate's caught up with a beast
I'm solo now, still no short-list
Of potential souls to enlist
Blocked so many out that my wrists
Hurt so bad like they're filled with cysts
My dreams of love have been shortlived
Steeming from empty words, deceived
A shallow lifestyle I perceive
From what I thought I had achieved
Yet since the day you prayed I'd leave
I've exhaled freely, now I live
Beyond the boundaries of past griefs
My future I've begun to weave
No more in you, do I believe
But I, myself, for me I breathe
From a life with you, I'm reprieved
Now thoughts of freedom, I conceive
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Procastination
My mind has recently been far
Away into my dreams at day
I've been blocking out facts of life
Not even tried to work or strive
I've just been procastinating
Drowned in my laziness, waiting
For the world to bring things to me
When I should be out hustling
I've recently felt lack of faith
My slacking a wonder, the eighth
My fear of failure holds me back
From getting myself back on track
I need to get up, get out there
And get on with it without fear
Combat all discouraging thoughts
Apply myself, like I was tought
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Away into my dreams at day
I've been blocking out facts of life
Not even tried to work or strive
I've just been procastinating
Drowned in my laziness, waiting
For the world to bring things to me
When I should be out hustling
I've recently felt lack of faith
My slacking a wonder, the eighth
My fear of failure holds me back
From getting myself back on track
I need to get up, get out there
And get on with it without fear
Combat all discouraging thoughts
Apply myself, like I was tought
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Sunday, 7 June 2009
Not Interested In You
It's the things that you do,
It's the way that you look
It's the piece on my soul from that bond that you took
It's the look in your eyes,
It's your smile I despise
It's the sick feeling deep in my guts that arise
When I look at your face,
I feel like a disgrace
For the moment I approached you that day took place
It's the fact that you've got your emotions misplaced
'Cos you wish there was 'us' but that won't be the case
You're not even my type,
Curb your feelings, the hype
Fresh, anew is the slate you must proceed to wipe
Wish I knew that a confused mindstate's what you're like
If we were face to face I would say "On yer bike"
Harsh and bitter's the truth,
How I feel about you
Might as well deal with it, 'cause what we were is through
Turn round and walk away,
Move on, deal with the pain
And don't bother me with your ugliness again
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
It's the way that you look
It's the piece on my soul from that bond that you took
It's the look in your eyes,
It's your smile I despise
It's the sick feeling deep in my guts that arise
When I look at your face,
I feel like a disgrace
For the moment I approached you that day took place
It's the fact that you've got your emotions misplaced
'Cos you wish there was 'us' but that won't be the case
You're not even my type,
Curb your feelings, the hype
Fresh, anew is the slate you must proceed to wipe
Wish I knew that a confused mindstate's what you're like
If we were face to face I would say "On yer bike"
Harsh and bitter's the truth,
How I feel about you
Might as well deal with it, 'cause what we were is through
Turn round and walk away,
Move on, deal with the pain
And don't bother me with your ugliness again
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Friday, 29 May 2009
Hatred
I never knew that I could hate
someone like this, so passionate
Is the anger I feel inside
Deep rooted, sullen, vast and wide
I've tried to fight ungodly thoughts
Drawn from the deepness of my guts
A pool of black blood thick with rage
The cold-heartedness can't be guaged
I look at you and I see death
No tombstone, not even a wreath
But a corpse cursed, stiffened and cold
Filled with demons of sorts untold
From built up, pent up anger's stead
Is the pure contrived hatred breed
That's grown and set it's roots in me
Engulf into the darkness, thee
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
someone like this, so passionate
Is the anger I feel inside
Deep rooted, sullen, vast and wide
I've tried to fight ungodly thoughts
Drawn from the deepness of my guts
A pool of black blood thick with rage
The cold-heartedness can't be guaged
I look at you and I see death
No tombstone, not even a wreath
But a corpse cursed, stiffened and cold
Filled with demons of sorts untold
From built up, pent up anger's stead
Is the pure contrived hatred breed
That's grown and set it's roots in me
Engulf into the darkness, thee
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Wednesday, 20 May 2009
Lost Seeds
I was afraid to grow so fast so soon, I was filled with fear
I was afraid to be a father, too afraid to be there
I know my words are meaningless now, too late to turn back time
And until my due dying days in guilt I'll live with this crime
My three lost seeds, my three angels, please tell me what have I done?
The chance to give you three the chance to live on earth has now gone
For you, to watch you grow and see your faces, breathe in the air
The atmosphere of this evil world, be a father who cares
To take the lives of three beings that haven't entered this world
To make a decision so selfish, deep inside anger boiled
For me, myself and I alone for what I've done with my pearls
And till this day I face depression 'cause my head's in a twirl
Into an ocean of confusion I subconsciously wade
I know you probably won't forgive me for the choices I made
But know that I would give my all to change the words that I said
The painful words uttered to her, alone she lay on the bed
The tears your mother shed were like acid that burned through my skin
I tried to show no emotions, her eyes showed I'm torturing
Her deep inside because she never wanted to give you up
And I know as I threatened to leave she was hoping I'd stop
Your mother acted on my choice of words, I take all the blame
And for the decision we made I hang my head here in shame
I'm sorry for the pain I have caused you all, my unborn kids
I'm sorry that I made your mother lose our angels, our seeds
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
I was afraid to be a father, too afraid to be there
I know my words are meaningless now, too late to turn back time
And until my due dying days in guilt I'll live with this crime
My three lost seeds, my three angels, please tell me what have I done?
The chance to give you three the chance to live on earth has now gone
For you, to watch you grow and see your faces, breathe in the air
The atmosphere of this evil world, be a father who cares
To take the lives of three beings that haven't entered this world
To make a decision so selfish, deep inside anger boiled
For me, myself and I alone for what I've done with my pearls
And till this day I face depression 'cause my head's in a twirl
Into an ocean of confusion I subconsciously wade
I know you probably won't forgive me for the choices I made
But know that I would give my all to change the words that I said
The painful words uttered to her, alone she lay on the bed
The tears your mother shed were like acid that burned through my skin
I tried to show no emotions, her eyes showed I'm torturing
Her deep inside because she never wanted to give you up
And I know as I threatened to leave she was hoping I'd stop
Your mother acted on my choice of words, I take all the blame
And for the decision we made I hang my head here in shame
I'm sorry for the pain I have caused you all, my unborn kids
I'm sorry that I made your mother lose our angels, our seeds
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Monday, 18 May 2009
Imagination
She understands that sometimes I just want to be all alone
She leaves me free here in my space just so I can freely zone
Out to another place in time where all our worries are gone
Sit on the shores at the sunset until the waves bring along
Rhythms that are all in harmony with the sounds of the crash
Of the waters as they break on the rocks making them splash
On my feet in the sands and I look out to the orange sun
Into the red horizon watching it set, now it is done
Her arms around my shoulders, skin to skin, she utters no words
Her warmth surrounding me and keeping me safe from the cold world
Two souls sit in silence, as we both heal from all our past hurts
The moment so timeless, we're entwined as we're both deep in thought
I wish that I could grow a pair of wings, protect her from all
Her fears, her past dark memories and those who want her downfall
She prescence sheds light into my heart, the dark imprisoning walls
And casts out demons in my soul, freeing me as out they crawl
I said I'd never fall in love again, now I'm breaking rules
Because I'm feeling drawn towards her gravitational pull
No matter how far I try to run she is still always there
And when I close my eyes shut her essence is still in the air
So now the stars are out sparkling in the clear blue cloudless sky
As clear as how my heart feels now knowing that my side she's by
She takes her soft fragile hand and gently places it in mine
Rests her head on my shoulder, and tells me that we will be fine
Her words turn into bright dust that disappears into the air
And echos softly into the night that now seems so unclear
I start to realise that this love that's so deep isn't real
That I'm really on my own daydreaming of what it would feel
Like to be with someone who'd be so caring, love so sincere
Untainted by the world and free from all it's ungodly snares
Someone to be forever with, in truth, in life and death too
In a world beyond the imaginations of what dreams do
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
She leaves me free here in my space just so I can freely zone
Out to another place in time where all our worries are gone
Sit on the shores at the sunset until the waves bring along
Rhythms that are all in harmony with the sounds of the crash
Of the waters as they break on the rocks making them splash
On my feet in the sands and I look out to the orange sun
Into the red horizon watching it set, now it is done
Her arms around my shoulders, skin to skin, she utters no words
Her warmth surrounding me and keeping me safe from the cold world
Two souls sit in silence, as we both heal from all our past hurts
The moment so timeless, we're entwined as we're both deep in thought
I wish that I could grow a pair of wings, protect her from all
Her fears, her past dark memories and those who want her downfall
She prescence sheds light into my heart, the dark imprisoning walls
And casts out demons in my soul, freeing me as out they crawl
I said I'd never fall in love again, now I'm breaking rules
Because I'm feeling drawn towards her gravitational pull
No matter how far I try to run she is still always there
And when I close my eyes shut her essence is still in the air
So now the stars are out sparkling in the clear blue cloudless sky
As clear as how my heart feels now knowing that my side she's by
She takes her soft fragile hand and gently places it in mine
Rests her head on my shoulder, and tells me that we will be fine
Her words turn into bright dust that disappears into the air
And echos softly into the night that now seems so unclear
I start to realise that this love that's so deep isn't real
That I'm really on my own daydreaming of what it would feel
Like to be with someone who'd be so caring, love so sincere
Untainted by the world and free from all it's ungodly snares
Someone to be forever with, in truth, in life and death too
In a world beyond the imaginations of what dreams do
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Wednesday, 29 April 2009
Modern Day Negro
Were we born to struggle, drown ourselves in seas of trouble
Hands of suffering tugging, reaching for air inside bubbles
Digging into grounds searching for what we feel missing
Searching all around when it's in that organ beating
A nation torn apart, an army that's unequipped
Their toils become an art, and the seeds ignore the scripts
Of stories of the mothers forced to watch the spirits broken
Of stories of the brothers forced to change the language spoken
Of decades stained with blood of the fore-soldiers who've fallen
Of renegades who fought for the revoluton calling
So let's bury our heads deep in the soils that they toiled
Let's show degenerations of generations we've spoiled
They're rolling in their graves, at the sight of paths they've paved
Now crumbs the children crave, warriors holed up in their caves
Worked for their inner strength, drained of their spiritual power
The time to reach all lengths, for we're in the final hour
Wake up, alarmed and startled, strengthen souls that have been rattled
Herded on earth like cattle, when we should engage in battle
A war that must be won, for the battle has begun
Roar from depths of our lungs, freedom songs that they have sung
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Hands of suffering tugging, reaching for air inside bubbles
Digging into grounds searching for what we feel missing
Searching all around when it's in that organ beating
A nation torn apart, an army that's unequipped
Their toils become an art, and the seeds ignore the scripts
Of stories of the mothers forced to watch the spirits broken
Of stories of the brothers forced to change the language spoken
Of decades stained with blood of the fore-soldiers who've fallen
Of renegades who fought for the revoluton calling
So let's bury our heads deep in the soils that they toiled
Let's show degenerations of generations we've spoiled
They're rolling in their graves, at the sight of paths they've paved
Now crumbs the children crave, warriors holed up in their caves
Worked for their inner strength, drained of their spiritual power
The time to reach all lengths, for we're in the final hour
Wake up, alarmed and startled, strengthen souls that have been rattled
Herded on earth like cattle, when we should engage in battle
A war that must be won, for the battle has begun
Roar from depths of our lungs, freedom songs that they have sung
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Monday, 27 April 2009
Times Like This
It's times like this when I feel stuck
And my mind hits a mental block
At loss of what next step to take
Unsure if through this phase, I'll break
It's times like this when I feel stressed
Drained to the point of being depressed
And I must fight and struggle, lest
I forget life is just a test
It's times like this, my head bowed low
When deep inside just feels hollow
When thoughts are frozen, I feel stunned
And yet the cold world's moving on
It's times like this that I must fight
Shy away from the dark to light
Face the challenges, without fail
Have faith in me, that I'll prevail
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
And my mind hits a mental block
At loss of what next step to take
Unsure if through this phase, I'll break
It's times like this when I feel stressed
Drained to the point of being depressed
And I must fight and struggle, lest
I forget life is just a test
It's times like this, my head bowed low
When deep inside just feels hollow
When thoughts are frozen, I feel stunned
And yet the cold world's moving on
It's times like this that I must fight
Shy away from the dark to light
Face the challenges, without fail
Have faith in me, that I'll prevail
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Tuesday, 31 March 2009
Bond
I don't like thinking of you, 'cause I get mad
All that does happen is that I just feel sad
Making me feel like when you're gone I am glad
Forgetting the good things from you that I had
You make me remember the bad things you've done
And yet I shudder at the thought of you gone
I want to be open with you but it's hard
When you bring me down, I feel like a retard
I don't like the fact that I don't feel a bond
Yet my love for you noone can put asund
With time passing by I can see you grow weak
Yet your inner strength seems to grow by the week
They say as the young one I should make that step
Responsibility for this I'll accept
So I will show more or at least I will try
Refrain from the negative ways and the lies
I'll work, just like you, struggling through my days
Until He decides it's time that we part ways
I'll never forget who we are, where we're from
I'll show my respect because I am your son
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
All that does happen is that I just feel sad
Making me feel like when you're gone I am glad
Forgetting the good things from you that I had
You make me remember the bad things you've done
And yet I shudder at the thought of you gone
I want to be open with you but it's hard
When you bring me down, I feel like a retard
I don't like the fact that I don't feel a bond
Yet my love for you noone can put asund
With time passing by I can see you grow weak
Yet your inner strength seems to grow by the week
They say as the young one I should make that step
Responsibility for this I'll accept
So I will show more or at least I will try
Refrain from the negative ways and the lies
I'll work, just like you, struggling through my days
Until He decides it's time that we part ways
I'll never forget who we are, where we're from
I'll show my respect because I am your son
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Friday, 13 February 2009
Rest In Peace
I'm resting in peace in a coffin I made
I'm free of my sins, 'cause for them I have paid
I dwell in a place parallel to the grave
Behind the dark walls where my soul can be saved
My slumber is deeper than the dreams that I've had
Just to be released from the world, I am glad
My journey on earth has been done for some days
Too late for a hug, and it's too late to pray
The shadows have closed in and seeped in my soul
Freed from the casket of my corpse and it's ghouls
I'm free in a world that some call a prison
The realm I am in now knows not the living
My life was a tormented dream that I lived
Here I cannot fathom why mortals would grieve
My fear of death has been conquered and won
For it was a friend for who's gift I had longed
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
I'm free of my sins, 'cause for them I have paid
I dwell in a place parallel to the grave
Behind the dark walls where my soul can be saved
My slumber is deeper than the dreams that I've had
Just to be released from the world, I am glad
My journey on earth has been done for some days
Too late for a hug, and it's too late to pray
The shadows have closed in and seeped in my soul
Freed from the casket of my corpse and it's ghouls
I'm free in a world that some call a prison
The realm I am in now knows not the living
My life was a tormented dream that I lived
Here I cannot fathom why mortals would grieve
My fear of death has been conquered and won
For it was a friend for who's gift I had longed
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Thursday, 12 February 2009
I Remember
Now she and I used to lay on the grass in the night
Staring at the sky's stars, count them all, they were bright
Just like the future we foresaw, walking into the light
With the cold breeze on her, so we both held so tight
I remember when I was falling deep into love
Of the things in my life, she was the one above
Skin as soft as the softest softness I'd ever felt
Looking in her eyes made the toughness in my heart melt
So we grew from the youth of naiveness, still young
We ventured into happy days we hoped would last long
Used to be young and free, day dreaming of 'What's love?'
Thinking of getting married somewhere peaceful, like shores
On a beach, on a distant land, away from this world
Share our thoughts, share our views, and what was mine was yours
Now what's left of what could have been have faded and gone
Into nothingness and dust, but the memories live on
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Staring at the sky's stars, count them all, they were bright
Just like the future we foresaw, walking into the light
With the cold breeze on her, so we both held so tight
I remember when I was falling deep into love
Of the things in my life, she was the one above
Skin as soft as the softest softness I'd ever felt
Looking in her eyes made the toughness in my heart melt
So we grew from the youth of naiveness, still young
We ventured into happy days we hoped would last long
Used to be young and free, day dreaming of 'What's love?'
Thinking of getting married somewhere peaceful, like shores
On a beach, on a distant land, away from this world
Share our thoughts, share our views, and what was mine was yours
Now what's left of what could have been have faded and gone
Into nothingness and dust, but the memories live on
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Saturday, 7 February 2009
Confined Mindstate
A mind of my own held inside
A cage I've built where I can hide
From the world out there that can not
Help ease this feeling in my guts
In my confinements I reflect
Upon my life, and past regrets
A darkened state of mind threatens
To engulf what's been enlightened
I feel like I have trapped my soul
In a prison-like world I know
And life feels like a running tape
It just rolls on, I can't escape
Too many wounds I have endured
Too many dreams that seem obscured
Too many demons' hands that press
My soul into soils of distress
Too long has it been since I've prayed
So far from peace, I wish it'd stayed
For now I slowly stray away
Unto that shadowed path, from day
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
A cage I've built where I can hide
From the world out there that can not
Help ease this feeling in my guts
In my confinements I reflect
Upon my life, and past regrets
A darkened state of mind threatens
To engulf what's been enlightened
I feel like I have trapped my soul
In a prison-like world I know
And life feels like a running tape
It just rolls on, I can't escape
Too many wounds I have endured
Too many dreams that seem obscured
Too many demons' hands that press
My soul into soils of distress
Too long has it been since I've prayed
So far from peace, I wish it'd stayed
For now I slowly stray away
Unto that shadowed path, from day
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Saturday, 24 January 2009
For Without HIM...
I watch myself trudge on through all
The emotional pain, in walls
Confined in a box, trapped, but still
I somehow make it through, I'm thrilled
Impressed, grateful, for all I've had
Combined in one Being, I'm glad
For I know I'm not strong alone
I'd be doomed to depression's zone
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
The emotional pain, in walls
Confined in a box, trapped, but still
I somehow make it through, I'm thrilled
Impressed, grateful, for all I've had
Combined in one Being, I'm glad
For I know I'm not strong alone
I'd be doomed to depression's zone
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
Daydream of Love
Sometimes I think of what it's like
To be in love, and have a wife
To settle down and have some kids
With someone I've a future with
Sometimes I watch couples walk past
Seems like time flies, it's moving fast
Looks like I'm getting left behind
I know my turn will come, in time
Sometimes I think of laying down
On grasses green, her spotless gown
As she gazes into my eyes
Such inner beauty clear, no lies
Sometimes I think of what it's like
To teach a son to ride his bike
And smile beside my one woman
Knowing he'll grow to be a man
And should it happen that I pass
Beyond this life, well then at last
I'll be somewhere away from this
Pit of loneliness, this abyss
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
To be in love, and have a wife
To settle down and have some kids
With someone I've a future with
Sometimes I watch couples walk past
Seems like time flies, it's moving fast
Looks like I'm getting left behind
I know my turn will come, in time
Sometimes I think of laying down
On grasses green, her spotless gown
As she gazes into my eyes
Such inner beauty clear, no lies
Sometimes I think of what it's like
To teach a son to ride his bike
And smile beside my one woman
Knowing he'll grow to be a man
And should it happen that I pass
Beyond this life, well then at last
I'll be somewhere away from this
Pit of loneliness, this abyss
Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)
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