Transition

Existing in a rapture, I relished in my capture
I feasted like a vulture, and ceased in growing mature
Feeding on the kindness, attitude was mindless
Unknown to the fact I was moving in my blindness

I'd hoarded on my past, and a dark shadow was cast
Over my mind unknown to the fact my joy won't last
Time was flying fast, family watched me aghast
Unmoved by my actions, lazed like life was a blast

Waking became a labour, turned to you as my saviour
Weakened in my spirit, getting worse in my behaviour
I simulated strength, but a mask was all I put on
Transparent was my soul, all my thoughts became illusions

I started to opress, I could not deal with my stress
All faith I had was less, and my anger was supressed
The bond became bondage, felt I was in a cage
Kept feeding all the anger, paranoia and rage

Unknown all along my life was being orchestrated
All up to the point when we became seperated
No chance for negiotating, my life has been designated
To lead and not to fall, spirit in me stimulated

By someone far greater than the idol that I worshipped
The One who created me, my Father and my Lordship
Was hiding from my problems, but He tore apart my shelter
Enabled me to send my fears all running helter skelter

I thought my life was over, my heart drowned in the damage
He told me I would make it, and I'd do much more than manage
All I thought was significant became irrelevant things
Unimaginable became real, I saw what life brings

Now my eyes are open, I'm detached, empty of worry
I'm passing through this world, all this is just temporary
Patience, perseverance, silence are my monetary
Pain will be memory when I lay in the cememetary

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Reality Check

As I ponder 'bout my life and things now that you are gone
I realize I need to check myself, it's time to move on
I know your friends will probably look at me with disgust and scorn
But all they see's a ghost, I'm a new man, but my heart is torn

Progression is the goal in my life, I'm really focused now
I know there will be hard times ahead, but I'll make it somehow
Sometimes the thought crosses my mind, wish you were here by my side
But that's a dream that I've destroyed 'cause of my sins and my pride

Maybe one day we'll see each other, you'll get a chance to discover
That I'm a better man than others and you'll search no further
But I know you can find a new guy one way or another
And even though we meet then I shall act like I'm not bothered

So now I'm healing slowly, and the days are getting longer
Inside I wish you'd come back and see we're not getting younger
If you find someone better,and we don't end up together
I'll keep on moving but I'd rather stay alone forever

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Love, Protection

You're a baby in this cruel world
You are the one that I adore
We'll watch sunsets at every shore
Know that my heart's forever yours

Reach for my hand so tenderly
We promise till eternity
That our love is forever kept
Wash away the tears that we wept

The fire of our bond burns so fierce
Watch all our enemies disperse
For our strength defies rules of earth
Daily we experience rebirth

Save you from hands of loneliness
I'll magnify your loveliness
Keep your comfort under my wings
Shield you from all the cold world brings

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Bleed For You

I dreamt of you every night, my soul was restless
I waited for you in fright, I was so depressed
I tore out my heart for you, So you'd save my soul
I walked through the darkest paths, Still your heart said no

I'm walking alone right now, My heart in my palms
It's beating, slowly in pain, Save me if you can
But now I know I've lost you, And it hurts to know
That now you are gone for good, not back tomorrow

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Searching

We search for something we can't find
Try to leave all our woes behind
We hurt, we cry searching for peace
All we have's not enough to please

We roam, we meet, wear out our feet
But our trials all face defeat
In search of something, fear to quit
To make us feel fulfilled, complete

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Sticking With God

I'm living in a time where things are changing all around me
The world is slowly fading, scales have fallen, now I can see
Nothing on this earth really seems to move me or astound me
All I can see are evil temptations that do surround me

I'm keeping to myself, don't want to be another victim
I'm keeping all my faith in God so I am done predicting
What my future holds for me because I don't know what it does
All I know is that as of now I live for God and His cause

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Parting Ways

I'm glad you act the way you do
You must think that I am a fool
You feel the world revolves round you
So do your thing, I'll keep my cool

Let's do things your way, keep afar
Go live your life and have a blast
I won't worry about where you are
Let us see how long your way lasts

I have a life, although I'm hurt
Been hurt before, you're not the worst
But this time I'll forgive, move on
So my part has been played and done

We'll meet again, and that's for sure
But it'll be hard to find a cure
For the damage that you have caused
Because there will be no more us

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Working Things Out

I'm comming to terms with the fact
You might not love me, and that's that
Seems you don't even want a pact
Do you think of me where you're at?
I worry about you everyday
Feels like you're pushing me away
Trying to stay far away from me
Avoid any chances we'll see

I'm so confused, and I feel stuck
Feels like I'm running out of luck
And only God can lead the way
Help me grow like the past few days
I only pray that you would call
Stop this, sort things once and for all
'Cuase all this distance makes me sad
Like because I'm not there, you're glad

I'm trying to be strong inside
My emotions are hard to hide
Next time we see, I will be cool
Not like last time, acting the fool
I don't know if you love me still
Why don't we talk, and keep it real
I am not trying to cause you pain
I'd like to stop this, start again

Each day you don't call I feel stress
'Cause it feels like you love me less
I'd like to know what's on your mind
If only I could, I'd rewind
the hands of time, but I cannot
I'm going to need patience, a lot
And leave all this into God's hands
Hope you call, let's know where we stand

I'm here for you no matter what
In all I do, you're in my thoughts
I care for you, you know this much
I yearn for you, just for a touch
Are we never going to see again
Or work together through this pain
Let us not throw those years away
Let's make it worhwhile, I do pray

That God touches you to forgive
And let's start afresh, let love live
'Cause we'll be stronger in the end
Lovers, partners, the deepest friends
Right now it feels I'm on the brink
But I will give you space to think
Let's work things out and let us be
Stronger together, you and me

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Giving Space

I really don't know what to say
That'll change your mind, and make you stay
I really don't know what to do
I can't tell if you love me too
I want you to be happy here
Right by my side, show that I care
But if you really need some space
I'm ready to grant you that grace

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Inner Battles In My Zone

I'm fighting urges to regress
And fall in a state of depress
-sion where I'm not able to cope
With emotions, dwelling on hope

I'm about to regenerate
Renew my soul and seal my fate
With prospects brighter than my past
To live a life that's pure and chaste

Preferring to be on my own
And explicate in my own zone
Free my soul from egoism
Touch other lives from my prison

My ethics are programmed to ster
Me away from ever going there
In the midst of lives, thinking deep
Fighting demons before I sleep

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Forgetting You

I'm walking away from it all, I cannot take this pain
I don't know if we'll ever get a chance to meet again
I have taken my heart from my chest, taking it with me
Placed it inside a box, and buried it beneath the sea

I am not made for earth so I'm on my way back to home
Forget this person that you ever thought that you had known
My soul is dead on the inside, I cannot hear your voice
I could not change your heart, therefore you've left me with no choice

If we should meet again I will not be the guy you knew
He's gone for good, chances to save him, all away you threw
My life has been in shambles and it's time to get reborn
Because the heart I've buried has been broken and is torn

If you could do things differently i really doubt you would
You can't deny, you know that I did the best that I could
But now it's time to shut the world I thought I knew and go
And hope and pray for me there is a better tomorrow

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Low Self-Esteem

I feel insure about myself
I doubt I'm meant to have great wealth
I think lowly of who I am
These thoughts in my head are all crammed

I'm trying to upgrade myself
Instead of sitting on the shelf
I try to smile in public view
If only these sad thoughts they knew

I want to be a better man
I'm trying to do the best I can
Rid my head of these thoughts, all lies
Make sure i keep my head up high

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Here Without You

A piece of my heart is now gone
Because of the wrong things I've done
My soul feels hollow, lost the spark
My heart broken, I'm in the dark

Guilt and sadness caused lack of sleep
Confusion, pain, and I would weep
Unprepared for a change in times
I could have sworn the world was mine

Now silence, sadness I endure
As to our fate I am unsure
But changes made within my soul
Direct me where I need to go

So many thoughts of you I have
For your sweet love, my soul is starved
Moments, I'm cool, some of despair
Dealing with the fact you're not here

So many choices to debate
But for your love, I'll surely wait
To be with you, and start anew
Like sunrise on the morning dew

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Feeling Down

Depression kicks in now and then
I walk amongst a thousand men
My heart still beats, my soul feels dead
A million thoughts run through my head

My soul is bare for all to see
Enemies rub thier hands with glee
I know I will be hurt again
But my soul feels numb to the pain

What can I do, retreat or face
My fears, I can't be a disgrace
I must confront and must challenge
Obstacles, no need for revenge

My time on earth is short and quick
To go through this I am the pick
In silence I must keep my stength
Through pain I must endure the length

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Be Free From Pain

Are you happy with how you are?
Can you say now that you've gone far?
Have you tried reaching for the stars?
Are you still tending to the scars?

Let go of it all, time will heal
The pain inside that you now feel
But don't dwell and make time stand still
Inside your mind, accept what's real

What's done is done, forget the past
Forgive trespassors who have cast
A doubt over your mind, think fast
Let go and you'll be free at last

So free your soul of worthless pain
You have so much in life to gain
Focus your mind and just refrain
From dwelling in the past again

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Self-Reflection 1

I'm in a mindstate where I'm deep in analysis
Recovering from a broken heart, so sorting out the pieces
Spent the past few years not knowing what peace is
Hating and raging while my soul inside deceases

Anger and pride were my downfall and my weakness
Fell into state, now I'm climbing out the deepness
Coming out of pain, no more nights that are spent sleepless
Changing on the inside, leaving all enemies speechless

Waiting on the one person that I would love to witness
The product of my changes and experience all this goodness
Enjoying what I can about life, tasting the sweetness
Maintaining my mindstate through pain, sadness even sickness

I had to check myself and I realised it was time
To start achieving goals, and start maturing my mind
I was living a life where my actions where all crimes
Now i am on a mission to make good of what I find

In this world that's temporary, nothing here is mine
May not gain the finer things of life, but that is fine
What matters are my actions here, be helpful and be kind
Always maintain my focus at all times while on the grind

Now my soul's clearer and it shines well, and it gleams
Not looking back on what I've done or where my mind had been
I spend more time in silence, trying to make real of my dreams
Working harder on my inner being, making it clean

I think back on the years I went through tough times as a teen
Remember bad experiances and all the things i'd seen
I've gone from holding things inside, being crual and mean
To being more of a man than I ever could have been

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Thinking Of Change

Thinking about my life right now
I must pull through all this somehow
I'm travelling through a dark tunnel
Feel like my heart's being put through hell

Thinking about ways to progress
Keep my mind off worry and stress
No space for pain, feels good and strange
I'm making progress and a change

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Cold Stare

The coldest stare was what I got
That made me feel sick in my guts
Knew there was something I had lost
Through lack of showing care and trust

I lay awake remembering
That cold look left me trembling
That old me's gone, no more again
My heart's now been made numb to pain

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Each Day With Pain

I take each day now as it comes
Achieve daily goals till I'm done
Then silence clouds me on my own
I'm reminded I am alone

Each day I wake to face the worst
Ready for all, so I'm not hurt
Yet each heartbeat brings pain inside
Then I try to focus my mind

Each day in silence I perform
My daily tasks as I'm transformed
From what I once was weeks ago
Letting memories from the past go

Still no matter how hard I try
I'm hurting still, and that's no lie
My character shines where I'm at
But hides inside a broken heart

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A New Day, On My Way

A brand new day, a fresh new start
An aura of peace in my heart
My lips are shut, except to praise
How I'm transforming, I'm amazed
My steps are guided, I'm on track
Gradually bring innocence back
Into my life, keep my focus
On God alone, 'cause it's just us

My head stays down, I'm but a sheep
I'm done with sad days, when I'd weep
I'm growing stronger everyday
spiritually, I'm on my way
To something better than this life
Not cars, money, even a wife
Beyond death, an eternity
I'm on my way there, come with me

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Tough Times Ahead

As I lay thinking, in my bed
I see challenging times ahead
Tough times that will challenge my faith
For pain, my heart has no more space

And so I man up, and prepare
For a big spiritual warfare
That's taking place inside my soul
As daily, I am trying to grow

No time for games, no time to stare
My future starts with me, fight here
So I must face what lies ahead
And not be weak, be strong instead

I say a prayer, and close my eyes
For finally, I've realised
That I am here for a short while
And then I break into a smile

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Fighting To Improve

I find myself facing my fears
Before I played like I didn't care
Now here I am, so deep in thought
Of what I might've forever lost

I'm fighting inside with myself
To stabalize my mental health
And be the man that I should be
And then become a better me

My heart is braced, I come prepared
Of all my sins, I am aware
I'm here to stay and take this road
Follow the paths that the Lord shows

I no longer dwell in the past
I'm seeing things clealy at last
I'm focused, yet still think of you
Soon you will see my words are true

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Ready For Whatever

I am not crap, I'm not a fool
I will not fret or lose my cool
I'll keep my head up, walk the path
And get rid of anger and wrath

There is no way I will turn back
The door is closed, no time to slack
I'm ready, Lord, for what you'll bring
I am your servant, you're my King

So lead me to the path of light
Through me let your glory shine bright
Lord let our relationship grow
All I need to learn, let me know

Help me be strong, and face my fears
Without ev'n an ounce of despair
Dry all my tears, fill me with peace
Let my life blossom in your bliss

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)