Self- Forgiveness

When the heart is heavy and full of pain, and painful memories won't go away
When all my dreams then turn to nightmares again, and linger on all throughout the day
And when the soul becomes a rock out of fear, is it the world or me that I deceive
When all the thoughts in mind are those of despair, it then seems oneself is so hard to forgive

I've been a prisoner of my own accord, and dwelled in self pity more than I would care
Spent more years in regret than I can afford, and sometimes ponder what I have left to share
I've been a slave to perceptions of the world, I bound myself by the chains of my thoughts
I've been tormented by thoughts of those I've hurt, self forgiveness is a gift I have not

There's only so many years left in this life, to not hope for a moment of peace
There's only so many regrets one can hide, to not pray for the guilts to all cease
There's only so many tears one can retain, show a brave face like a good little lad
After that there's only only so much disdain, one can have till self forgiveness is had

I've said I hate myself for too many times, banished my soul to shame for all that I've done
I've drowned myself in the seas of all my crimes, prayed someday these demons would be gone
But now It's time to let go of all this weight, free my soul from all these burdens on me
For now's a turning point to decide my fate, so I'll forgive myself so I can be free

Copyright © 2013 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)