In Your Shoes

If I walked in your shoes, my world would feel so dark and blue

I'd think I'd know what to do, I'd feel it's best that I broke up with you

Now that I understand, I'm going to step back and give space to you

I will be a better man, for your love I just can not bear to lose

When our worlds feel apart, trying desperately to reach out to you

Will a miracle start, when it does you'll want to know if it's true

You'll be safe in my arms, but there's a lot I know that I've got to do

And the weather will calm, together we will heal and make it through

Heal & Love

I know my actions hurt your heart
And for my mistakes and the part
I played in messing up the while
Accumulating sins in piles

I am filled with regret and shame
That my actions tainted my name
And now it hurts to see you stressed
Feeling like things are such a mess

My saving grace now is your love
Which I'm working to take care of
I understand you kick yourself
For feeling like you had no strength

I feel your anger, pain, sadness
The thoughts, battles and your nightmares
It pains having to see you be
Going through these because of me

Your inner strength I do respect
I question not your intellect
And know your choice is not in vain
And love will be restored again

Only a woman filled with strength
Of ten men would go through this length
Your heart not taken for weakness
But admired for it's forgiveness

Time is a healer, and we will
be healed in time through work and zeal
I hope in time that one day you'll
Forgive me and we'll close the wounds

One day we will look back on now
The world will admire that somehow
We waded through the depths of pain
And our love stood it's ground maintained

We have what people search around
Sifting through, losers, players and clowns
And somehow we found each others hearts
And knew we did not want to part

Let's write our story together
And make love blossom forever
But sowing the seeds that we must
Forgiveness, peace, joy, love and trust

Copyright © 2013 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

I'm Good Without You

I thought the demons in my life
Had left, and that I had survived
I thought the inner rage was gone
It's clear to me it's not all done

There's still more inner work to do
And through this phase I will get through
Strengthen my soul, and be the man
I'd worked so had to be, I can

I shed no tear again for you
For that's a sign of weakness too
The colder side seemed to work best
Learn what I can control's the test

I am my own man, that's the fact
Without you I can live intact
So when I'm healed and changed, I'll still
Be complete without you, I will

I spent some years in deep regret
From my past ways, I did reflect
In so many dark days alone
In shame, in guilt, I held my own

But perfect I am not, but still
I have learned I can change at will
Not for you, but for me, myself
So my soul will be in good health

So stay away if that's your choice
And care not for my feelings' voice
I'm focused now on my own path
To heal from anger, pain and wrath

Your fellow faces spit and spew
Such venomous words in my view
Unknown to them I have heard worse
So untouched I am from their curse

Removed from my life now they are
In your own realm, not near but far
Surround myself with love and peace
Until all stress has been released

Assertive I am, when I choose
You're not the first that I would lose
So run off, if you feel you must
But I'll be fine, that you can trust

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Use Time Wisely

Time invested making progress
Time well spent will need to no stress
Time wasted will be a lot less
And in time will lead to success

Wasting time stressing gains nothing
Worrying about hanging on to strings
Rather than making those strings wring
Be strong so good change the rope brings

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Fear Of Loneliness

Feel so lonely, feel so sad
All because I have been bad
I should have just been so glad
With the lady that I had

Now I fear my love is gone
She has no strength to carry on
Because the things that I have done
Have hurt her to the point of numb

How do I save what I have got
The chance for me to save the lot
She her the love that I have fought
To save is still strong in our guts

How do I eat at times like this
When food tastes like air, how I miss
The feeling of knowing she is
Feeling in love with me in bliss

Each second feels just like torture
The fear she'll tear my heart, the gore
Is killing me for I'm unsure
If I've lost her forever more

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The Nor

Where memories of youth reside
Fades away slowly into time
Where love and nurturing were live
A dusty image in the mind

The heart is heavy, drenched in fear
Of eternal loss of what’s dear
But fate is sealed for it is clear
The journey to the world starts here

Copyright © 2013 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Nimark

I’m happy that I’ve found someone, that I feel is now the one
That I should stay faithful to now, as she makes me feel good somehow
I never feel worried about, spending time with her, there’s no doubts
There’s no fears, insecurities, no second guessing within me

A genuinely sweet lady that, comports herself wherever she’s at
An aura of respect she has, and projects nothing less than class
I’ve never felt this much at peace, and viewed such times as this as bliss
There’s so much pride I hold within, when by my side I know she’s seen

My heart no longer fears to love, fears not to share all that I’ve got
Be it a grain of sand or seed, or all my thoughts, my words and deeds
The doors to the world shutting down, with no interest to clown around
The question now’s where do I find, the guts to ask her to be mine?

Copyright © 2013 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Self- Forgiveness

When the heart is heavy and full of pain, and painful memories won't go away
When all my dreams then turn to nightmares again, and linger on all throughout the day
And when the soul becomes a rock out of fear, is it the world or me that I deceive
When all the thoughts in mind are those of despair, it then seems oneself is so hard to forgive

I've been a prisoner of my own accord, and dwelled in self pity more than I would care
Spent more years in regret than I can afford, and sometimes ponder what I have left to share
I've been a slave to perceptions of the world, I bound myself by the chains of my thoughts
I've been tormented by thoughts of those I've hurt, self forgiveness is a gift I have not

There's only so many years left in this life, to not hope for a moment of peace
There's only so many regrets one can hide, to not pray for the guilts to all cease
There's only so many tears one can retain, show a brave face like a good little lad
After that there's only only so much disdain, one can have till self forgiveness is had

I've said I hate myself for too many times, banished my soul to shame for all that I've done
I've drowned myself in the seas of all my crimes, prayed someday these demons would be gone
But now It's time to let go of all this weight, free my soul from all these burdens on me
For now's a turning point to decide my fate, so I'll forgive myself so I can be free

Copyright © 2013 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

My Resting Place

This is where I feel so safe
From all the world and all it's hate
For all I am and all I say
Here's where in peace I meditate

Here's where my dreams are spilled and shared
For all to read, for those that care
Here's where revealed are inner fears
Here's all my deep thoughts of despair

Here's where I cling to all I've lost
That's withered, died and turned to dust
Here's where I dwell in memories
Here's where I write my history

A trail of thoughts random, sequenced
In order, honest, no pretence
Here's where the bitter truth resides
Here's where I let go of my pride

Here's where my tears are verbalised
Clouded in words to mesmerise
Whoever should spare time for their eyes
To read, and not even realise

Here lies a broken shameful heart
The limbo where world's torn apart
Linger in nothingness for time
Here are my thoughts, raw, unrefined

I lay to rest the pain within
Here where I let go of my sins
That bury me in guilt and pain
Here's where I fear I shall remain

Till such a time when I am freed
Exhumed from this grave misery
Until I'm saved and given grace
Here's where I'll lie, my resting place

Copyright © 2013 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)