If I Had The Chance

If I had the chance to tell you, all the things I had to say
I'd call your name once, then I'd tell you just before you walked away
I'm sorry for the pain I caused, during the time I had with you
And all the times I caused you hurt, and for the physical pain too

I know that this might be the only chance I'd get to say these words
And that they tell me time has passed, that it is pointless and absurd
But this is how I really feel, not walls or front to hide the truth
One of the brightest times I had was with you in all of my youth

I've spent the last couple of years wallowed in guilt, pain and regret
I've punished myself, and accepted now my love you might reject
I've spent the time reflecting on the moments that I should have stopped
Taken a moment to control myself before feelings were hurt

I know they'll say to me that was just a time for lessons to learn
But deep inside the passion of my love for you still brightly burns
I am aware that you've moved on, and to me, seem happy with life
And I have searched far and wide for someone I'd hoped would be my wife

But all in vain, and not because they're not suitable for my taste
But the fact that I still love you puts all that effort into waste
So here I stand with you in my presence once again, vulnerable
I do not plead, I do not beg, or yearn for you to enable

Some form of compassion for me, but all I do is tell you what
Has been in my heart for these years, hidden, concealed and left to rot
I still love you, "_________ _______", that's all I can tell you right now
For what it's worth, if it's worth naught, then I am freed within somehow

Copyright © 2010 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)