Lost Seeds (Revamped)

I did not give a single chance, to hear the words you had to say
I put my foot down, held my stance, I just wanted us to part ways
I thought ahead, I had foresight, and felt what we'd have was a threat
You wanted to show me the light, letting you go is my regret

I put a lot of effort in, had sleepless nights, drowned in my thoughts
I searched my soul, but fear within hardened my heart and wrenched my guts
I looked at you, you wanted me, you had a lot of love to give
But my bad past experiences clouded my judgement to believe

I have enough troubles to face, why should I take on yours as well?
I did not want to hear your case, your heart was downcast, I could tell
Sometimes at night I wonder if, our relationship would have worked?
Sometimes I ponder my choices, as bad as this cold heartless world

There's not a day that passes by, when I am lost in thoughts of you
Knowing now that you are with Him, leaves me envious, but we are through
I was afraid to be the man, I was too afraid to be there
I thought that you would understand, my fears were too deep to be shared

All my words are meaningless now, becuase you are no longer mine
I wish things were different somehow, but it's too late to turn back time

I just wanted to let you know, daily for you my heart does bleed
I should never have let you go, now only my guilt I can feed
I pray someday that you'll forgive what I have done, my evil deeds
And I hope that you rest in peace, my three lost seeds, my unborn kids

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Grave Thoughts

I sat by my tombstone, the moment was forever
I dreamt of the times when I thought we'd be together
The folly of my ways, and I never moved forward
As slowly to my day of my death I moved towards

Unknown were the paths to me, though I knew
That if I had fought all, I'd have made it through
Then I wailed in the corpse, suddenly entrapped
By the breathe of death, drowned into the dark

Detached from the land of the living, unawakened
Deep in the slumber of death since when I was taken
The tears of my spirit nurtured flowers at my grave
Through the casket I could see family finally wave

Like a statue by my coffin I sit with my arm akimbo
I ponder what can never be as my soul's lost in limbo
I'm numb in the moment, and this feels like it won't end
Head bowed in regret, seems death is my only friend

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Will I know

Will you free my soul from the pain I know
With no sorrow when I wake tomorrow?
If I leaped from the edge of the highest cliff
Will I fly, will I float just like a leaf?

Should I hide in fear from the world out there
Or should I live my life without nought a care?
Can I have one moment to refresh my soul
To ensure that I'm free of these doubts and ghouls?

Am I here for a reason, will I ever know why
Or am I a scapegoat for all when I die?
Will she eventually come and stay by my side
Is my shoulder the place where her head resides?

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Sleep

Slumber beckons me into realms of dreams
Where messages and visions reside, not as they seem
WHere the unreal feels real but yet seems obscured
By unconscious subconsciousness that is so sure

That one is awake, but yet one's too deep
Into the world of slumber, one's body's asleep
While the soul hasdeparted temporarily gone
Still attached to the body yet has travelled beyond

Where the barriers of what the human eyes can see
Where the carriers convey the spirit where it is free
It's the sleep that I crave, not while I'm i the grave
And until I awaken, to it's grips I'm a slave

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Fear Of Purpose (Incomplete)

An indivudual consisting of embodied systems

Forever is the light that deep inside I must endeavor
To keep me on the right path to the land of distant treasure
Through battles I must fight, and temptations of evil pleasures
In search of peace of mind is what I am primarily here for

Some say what is the purpose? 'Cause life is full of sorrows
As long as there is life there is a purpose for tomorrow
The time to find our reasons and our purposes are borrowed
I know we are all reasons, don't know why, but what do I know?

We're living in a world where unbelievers commit treason
We know their fear of Truth and knowledge is their only reason
The treason is against He that watches us all from heaven
Therefore until that Day we battle on twenty-four seven

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

A Short Piece

To lay with you and melt in bliss
To fade into eternal peace
To wade into the waters pure
To be with you, of that, I'm sure

To watch the sunset in it's place
Beyond the horizons, we gaze
To stand with you in timelessness
To hold your hand, gently caress

To stay in stillness, with you, share
To share with you this moment here
To free our souls from pain and fears
To be at peace, together, here

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Hidden Emotions

When there is darkness in my heart
When what is left is torn apart
When my soul's exposed and laughed at
When from the pain I can't depart

You live the life of one that's free
But still in chains are all and thee
You say you've found what's right for you
So with what's here what do I do?

The midnight talks of nothingness
The dependances where heads rests
You're far ahead, and out of sight
I rest my head alone tonight

They say there's peace where I am at
They set the rules for me lik facts
Just like a troll, beneath I live
The towering masks while I bereave

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)