Last Post For 2007

End to another year. I'm just rounding up packing my things for the trip to Nigeria.It's 1.30am here. I feel really sleepy, but I have to finish up.

I procastinated a lot this year, hence I did not acheive the things I could have achieved. I will be using this trip as a time to see family, have a good time, but most importantly to remind myself where I'm coming from, so that I may clearly see where I should be heading. This is a time for reflection for me.
To all I have offended, I am sorry. I have no excuses, but you will see a better me in the new year. To thosewho have stayed true as a friend, thank you. To those who I've faded out, I hope you achieve good things in life.

I intend to get closer to God, because I realise that there is no escape from reality. I thank God for protecting me throughout this year, and I pray for many more years for all of us filled with blessings.

Much love to mum, dad, my lil bro Charles(C.O.P), my sisters(Ehi & Margaret) for putting up with my many flaws and still loving me. Much love to my 'boys' Evans, Lloyd & Sam. Much love to Dominique, Shireen, Jacqueline & Nerisa.

I intend to have a thousand poems by my birthday in June, so watch this space.
Have a wonderful christmas, do not forget the real reason we celebrate it (the birth of Christ), and have a wonderful 2008 filled with blessings.

much love, D.U.N.T.E.E.

A Drawing I Did

Just a drawing I had to do for an assignment.

1 1/2 Weeks To Go

Lagos Lagos here I come
Now I am the nervous one
Can't wait till this week is done
So that I can start the fun

Two weeks! A long while to go
Gets in touch with those I know
From about eight years ago
Boy, we must be getting old

I pray that I get there safe
See my dad and then I'll wave
And then starts the fourteen days
Come back after New year's day

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Learn Not Lust

A hollow soul like yours has been known to be a flirt
A young guy that's chasing after little skirts
Never had the luck in getting to the target first
Always using energy so you're always in the thirst

Pulling out the game before I end in a hearse
End up ill or dead, I do not know which is worse
But either way I don't want to be placed under a curse
I stop by my own will, don't want fate to put the force

Let me clean my soul before females seal my fate
Yes I can be patient, for the true one I will wait
Won't waste my time on ladies, while I've got a true soulmate
I want to be in love, there is nothing to debate

So waste your time on lust, meanwhile my demons I'll face
Until I find a way to get out this lustful place
You're going to end up desperate till one day you're sprayed with mase
Definately learn your lesson, once you're through the painful phase

So let me learn my lesson, don't let me be the young fool
Don't want to be a desperado, Let me keep my cool
Relaxed and mello like a white swan in a pool
End physical activities, my mind is now the tool

An anlylizing instrument I'll use to observe you
To learn from all your mistakes, and not do the things you do
Acting like a wild animal that's set free from a zoo
So i'll sit back observe and learn a thing or two

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Mason

While I was here I searched for peace
I looked for love and I found none
Now I have found eternal bliss
My time in this cold world is done
The cup of peace from which I sip
Has rinsed those dark thoughts from my head
My soul can rest, in timeless sleep
Lay still and silent in my bed
Recollections of all I've dreamt
So far away from where I lay
Waiting patiently in this realm
In hope we'll meet again someday

2007 A.D

The conclusion of this year nears
A year that has been filled with tears
Another year now lost to time
All that's left are memories in mind

So many lives lost in the world
So much sadness, so much spilled blood
A year filled with much tainted wealth
And souls trapped in the valley of death

Now comes the time for us to make
Emplty promises we shall break
To ourselves to ease up our guilt
So we cry not over milk spilt

Where do we go from here on out
Do we know what this life's about
Unaware as the year goes past
The final end draws near and fast

Breaking Point

I can tell just by looking in your eyes
The inner built up resentment, hate and despise
Have taken over the feelings you had for me
And now you're telling me that I should leave you be
Well if you really want me to set you free
Well I.m afraid it can't happen, see I.m in love with thee
So let us both work through our differences
And you'll see further obstacles will be utter bliss
So tell me right now because I really need to know
Do you want to break the bond that unites our lost souls

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

A Short Dark Phase (The Lost Cause)

My soul in limbo in a world of darkness
Seeking vengeance in the land of the heartless
Followed by pestilent spirits of the underworld
Lacking sleep, lay awake, body in a curl
A walking victim, my soul has been captured
My mindstate in turmoil, is the demons' rapture
The nightmare I live in worse than I envisioned
The hellhole gets deeper into my lost mission

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Mother

You watch over me, your first son, whom you love more than life
For me you sweat from your brow, through your struggles and your strife
And nothing I can show to you, not even for myself
Avoiding the truth of life in the end we shall meet death
I think of you and my heart melts from all the hell I raise
My spirit humbled, contrary to all the rage i praise
And debt accumulates, in it's abundance owed to you
For all the sadness and the pain that I have put you through

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

A Subconcious Vision

Struggle, my luggage that I take wherever I go
My back is broken, beaten, the wounds on it do show
my eyes are weary from the sins that they have both been shown
My brain is oblivious to friends and family I've known

You walk alone with what is left of what was once precious
A broken soul, in need of mend, wounds inflicted vicious
But you shine to me like the sun through all oblivious pain
And in my heart I know that once more supreme you shall reign

We stand by the seashore, watching the sun rest in the west
Our bandaged souls healing, slow beating hearts inside our chests
The memories of pain endured reduced now to our feet
We walk away from the place where never again we'll meet


(For The Many Precious Lives Lost In The Slave Trade)

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Star

A dying star eager to shine
A treasure once lost, found and mine
Another day of abundance
Outshine the sun, this is the chance
Filled with readyness, bound by chains
Long to be free, to once more reign
Through toil and despair brought by day
Till time to shine a world away

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Tag: From Shir33n

The rules: post a list of 5 things that make you happy and then tag 8 people to continue it.

1. Writing poetry & drawing in silence, alone and/or while listening to the right song.
2. Analyzing things, looking deeper...
3. Going for walks on my own and thinking about life
4. Seeing people of different races interacting in harmony
5. The feeling of being wanted, needed and loved.

Tagging: Sam, Evans, Lloyd, Elsivalsi, Ehi, Charles, Dominique, Mag

Thank You...

...for putting a smile on my face. You will read this, and you know who you are, and may not know if it's really you whom I'm referring to or how you've done it...but yes, it is you.

Thank you...:-)

Sleepless Nights

I've spent the last few days walking in my dreams
Asleep in darkness, wallowing away in my sins
Unsure of who I am or what I'll ever be
So lost inside the world, now I know no peace

My sins are weighing down on me, my eyes are weary
I feel like all hope for my soul is dead and buried
My soul is empty so no words are uttered
So cold and silent like a corpse in the gutter

So many sleepless nights with so many questions
So many heavy naps with so many visions
My space is a den that is filled with demons
And only when I search my soul is when I see them

The past few days are only battles lost to my weakness
And hence my nights are getting darker, laying still,sleepless
As traffic flows inside my mind, the unanswered qustions
Staring at the figure of grace, while it's hand beckons

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Your Mind, Your World

Let me come inside of you
Allow me to delve deep into your inner space
I want to explore you
So open up for me, and let me into you
Let me fill your vacant space with my love
I want you to feel me, as I travel into your darkest areas
And shed light into your world
I want to know you, everything about you, inside you
So let me ease inside you, and feel you
Let us connect as one, let me set you free
Let me into your mind
Let me share your world...

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Dreaming Of You

As I sit alone on the bus
I just zone out and think of us
Imagining we were in love
No long distances between us
I try to visualize your face
Then I try to capture the place
Layed down together on the grass
As clouds in the sky slowly pass

Then we escape amongst the stars
Into the sky we soar , so far
We leave this earth, create our world
For here, there is nothing for us
Sometimes, alone, I think of us
On my long journeys on the bus
Wishing all my dreams would come true
So one day I could be with you

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

The Road of Life: Junction 26

I learnt today I am a man
Coming to terms and understand
My childhood days are too far gone
But they've made me what I've become

I saw you yesterday, we talked
We reflected on memories
Missing the world we thought we knew
Then far apart we lived, and grew

Today we are, as men, we talk
Exchange ideas, dreams as we walk
On that long narrow, winding road
To our future we slowly mould

In fifty years we shall be gone
Our missions here complete and done
Our seeds, feeling the life we felt
Shall meet up here, where once we met

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Stay Or Go

Let me know where I should be
Away from you or close to thee
Tell me, should I walk away
Or say you want me to stay

I can not bear the pain no more
I don't know what I'm living for
My heart is aching for your love
My broken heart is all I've got

Free me, please, from all my woes
Tell me, should I stay or go
For if I'm to walk out the door
Know that my heart is always yours

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

My Muse

I am losing my muse...:-(

I feel dead inside, I can't feel the vibe.
I've been trying to get it, but I can't. Hence, the lack of poetry recently.

I'm not happy...

Let Me Think

Alone in my castle I ponder and wonder on nature
The depths of my mind I explore and evolve on my culture
If you're unwilling to enter, experience the feeling
The door is wide open, remember to shut while you're leaving

Non Existent

Have you ever realized suddenly that you are alone?
Have you ever come to terms with the fact one day you'll be gone?
Have you ever thought about the fact the world will forget you?
The fact that your great grandchildren will never see or e'en know you?

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

...

Let's both journey on a mission
With the powers we've been given
Let's hope that the world will listen
Free their souls from this cold prison
Potential legions of soldiers
Wasting away growing older
Let's show them the world is ending
"Open your eyes, stop pretending"
There's no more reason for anger
Put it away on a hanger...

(Warm up poem)

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

America For You

In the September 18, 1858 debate, Abraham Lincoln said:
I will say then that I am not, nor ever have been, in favor of bringing about in any way the social and political equality of the white and black races - that I am not, nor ever have been, in favor of making voters or jurors of Negroes, nor of qualifying them to hold office, nor to intermarry with white people; and I will say in addition to this that there is a physical difference between the white and black races which I believe forever forbid the two races living together on terms of social and political equality. And in as much as they cannot so live, while they do remain together there must be the position of superior and inferior, and I as much as any other man am in favor of having the superior position assigned to the white race

Feeling Down

I see why people run from me
Avoiding me so silently
it's the way I carry myself
Act on impulse, and without stealth
With good intents i make moves
my results do nothing but prove

That I act so irrational
Are my ways set? Is that final?
I hope to change, and I seek help
To curb the rage inside myself
I feel ashamed to show my face
instead display the mask in place

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Thoughts Of You

I sit in this wall of silence, only thoughts of you in my mind
Thoughts of you, of the past
Wishing I could be with you, wondering where you are
I laugh with the world, and sit in silence alone
Things are quiet here now, nothing much has changed
The world moves on, as if we never existed, as if you never existed
But I know you exist, and if the world should deny it
At least you live in my mind, in my heart
I sit in this wall of silence, only thoughts of you in my mind
This is my punishment, for being who I am
For following the wrong path, for taking the wide road
i should have waited, waited for you
Now I sit here...in my room... in my world...alone
Things are quiet here now...

Someday

I've searched for you around the world
Hoping someday I would find you
Just so that you could be my girl
To you alone I would be true

So many years have come and gone
Still when night falls, I sit alone
Thinking maybe something I've done
That makes fate leave me on my own

Maybe we'll never meet again
And pass each other unaware
Your face in my mind heals the pain
Of the fact that you are not here

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Keep Cool

Freedom from all unrighteous thoughts
Loads of stress, I've received a lot
So much that i would lose it, but
I'll keep my cool, I've got the guts

Depression aims to claim my mind
'Control your thoughts', I do remind
myself to keep my spirits up
Be calm till all this madness stops

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Our World

We know what we want, there's no need for a formal introduction
We know what we feel, what we have there's no infatuation
I'm so captivated by your vibe,intrigue not seduction
We both move in rhythm, we do not rely on emotions

I'm bringing you closer, together grow older as lovers
The passion so intense, without even touching each other
'Cause it's the look in your eyes that captures my attention forever
Life is so beautiful the instance we're both are together

Come into our world
Look into our world
Feel love in our world
Welcome to our world

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Urban Guerrilla

I'm fed up with these irritants, evil looks in they're eyes
They've got me feeling militant, they make my anger rise
Always move in silence, urban soldier in disguise
They figured 'cause I'm quiet, they'd ride me but hey surprise

I head into my base and I put on khakhis, fatigues
My boots laced up, then I stack up on my artilleries
My mental-state focused on the targets, comrades they're with
So when they feel the heat up under them, they cannot breath

I'm ready for the battle,I'm stacked up on ammunition
Alert and ready, never know when they'll make their decision
My aim on the target with experience and good precision
When they move I blow up, and bring about their demolition

The battle is thick , running for my life heading to safety
The opponent is breaking, and their movement's getting hasty
I'd rather be dead, not alive for them to take prisoner
I'd rather be a guerrilla than a captive, their dinner

The opponents are dark feelings like depression and pain
My ammunition are the thoughts that will help me maintain
My weapons are a pencil and a paper, lined or plain
The battlefield is where the fight takes place, inside my brain

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Vision Of You

I saw you standing by the gates
You said for me, that you would wait
We were as one, we were soulmates
We knew we'd meet, it was our fate

I reached to touch you, we were close
To feel your face with my eyes closed
I missed your touch, wished you could stay
Our time was short, slipping away

I gave my heart, all I could give
Asked for my wrongs, you would forgive
Your smile, soothing, just like cool breeze
Tears fall gently, like leaves from a tree

You walked away, slow steady steps
As you faded away, I wept
I left the dream, alone and cold
Filled with deep emotions untold

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Fugitive

My chances of escapade, futile
There's nowhere else for me to hide
When love's in sight I run a mile
At worst, contemplate suicide

The grievious pain I have received
from trials and errors I've had
Has left my soul feeling bereaved
For my dead heart, beaten so bad

Amongst the mass, in public view
What's left inside, I do conceal
For I fear if the whole world knew
I shall be put through more ordeals

My faith in love, like shattered glass
Only destined to be short-lived
Onwards I run, aimless yet fast
With a wounded heart that still bleeds

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Stop Sweating Me

Damn you just irritate me
why can't you just let me be
You won't let me have my life
Acting like you are my wife

Just leave me alone, that's all
When I'm with you I'm dismal
All I need now is some peace
To relax and be at ease

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Ballad of A Player's Heart

I want to be around, I don't want to play around,
While you were not in town, I went round the playground
I played with everybody, was just looking for somebody
To cuddle with my body, in the end I got nobody

You're hardly ever here, and that is not even fair
I don't know if you care, that's why i go everywhere
In mind I'm wondering, what it is I'm really missing
Just thinking, pondering, what I lack thats insufficient

I realise that I, can't be free if I'm with you
So what it is I do, is just let you know we're through
Don't ask me where I am, don't bother with what I do
I'm moving on from you, I suggest you do it too

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Blind Sin

Why does mankind waste it's time
Committing these sinful crimes
Murdering souls everyday
Generations led astray
Bleeding victims lying there
Heartless soldier doesn't care
Frightened children, families
Losing a loved one daily

What is it that makes you cheer
Why are you so unaware
While your imminent fate awaits
You're so blindly filled with hate
You leave nothing to survive
Taking all these innocent lives
You don't even realise
One day you will pay the price

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Blissfully Flawed

It's so hot that my heart is now molten metal
Like fresh water making me a bright coloured petal
Only with you I want to spend time viewing sceneries
On top the hill, beneath the sun, in such tranquility

In our own world just you and me in it, we'll be enclosed
And in my arms, with me alone,you leave your heart exposed
My love for you above your flaws, shall be your skin inlaid
Forever we shall be so natural every night and day

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

A.D.C 5991

You, dear, will always be free
My problems are what holds me
I can never be with you
Even though I would like to

I spent these years always thinking
If I'm the guy you are missing
And if you remember my face
The journey we took and the place

I map your face on all of theirs
Wishing all love stories were ours
In awe of you I couldn't speak
Now all chances we have are bleak

I guess you'll never know my name
I fear our thoughts are not the same
I will be lost to memories
Long gone from mind, my destiny

And this is why I say you're free
'Cause you will never be with me

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Do You Think

What do you think in your mind
If the both of us had tried?
Do you think we would have rhymed
Or the feelings would have died?
Do you think that this is fate
Or maybe we should just wait?
Both our skins have never touched
Have you ever had that thought?
If we made one out of two
Do think that would be cool?
Have you ever thought of me
All of these years seperately?
Even though 'we' never was
What did stop the both of us?
Have you ever thought just like me
If you and me can ever be?

Long Time No See, Old Friend Charlene

I walked into the bar with two of my mates
The end of poetry night, we were nearly late
my boy pointed you out to me
A little dark, I couldn't see

I saw that face that I had known
I'd seen those eyes some years ago
Still looked as good from the first time
You were so cool, and I kept mine

You said what's up, I said what's good
You'd just moved back into the 'hood
I liked your flow, you were so smooth
There was a vibe, I think you knew

But i'm grown now, and I'm a man
I saw you did not understand
Why I'd not tried to make a move
Or asked you to dance to the groove

I don't know why, I can't tell you
We'll both know when the time is due
The night was hot, when it was over
I did not ask for your number

You had no chance to ask for mine
I'd disappeared into the night...

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Dodging Bullets

Okay I went eventually to the Carnival 2day with my friend Lloyd and his cousin Jermaine, and here's my summary;

Started off okay. Got some 'looks' from some girls, but I'm not into all that.
Trouble then started, and we ended up having to dodge bullets 3 TIMES!!
At first I couldn't believe it, but by the second time bullets were flying, I was running and ducking for cover like crazy.
Didn't bother going for any after parties, so us three, after a hard days work of staying alive, ended up in KFC, ordering a family bucket and devouring everything in it in appreciation of life.

So I'm back at home, safe. And I think it's safe to say that I won't be going out to any 'social events' for a while...for now...

And so now I ask myself, why did I bother?...

Why should I bother?

Why should I go to carnival? Why should I bother myself? Why should I waste money on overly expensive improperly cooked food? Why should I place my fragile human body in the midst of young and middle agged men, women, boys and girls who are smoking, drinking, acting perverted and dancing in a lustful way? Why should I immerse myself in sin?

Guys go there to chat up and meet girls to sleep with, girls go there for...I dunno, but whatever their purpose, they are scantily dressed, showing or overemphasising more than is needed to be seen. You can see young guys moving in groups, acting the fool and looking for trouble, armed with knives(hidden), and in some worse cases, guns.

Instead i shall chill and relax at home, and anyone who would like to come and chill is welcome.I love my life.

Carnival? It's celebration has lost it's purpose, in my opinion. So why should I bother?

The Green Tree (A Short Poem)

The green tree may not see me
Unknowingly it protects me
From the warm tears of the rain
Till the sun gives shine again
The green tree stands silently
Though winds blow violently
Yet still the green tree does stay
Until the end of it's days

Non-Accomplishments

At the end of your life, what can you say that you've accomplished
Is your life really perfect, like a home that has been furnished
All the work you have left, do you think they can be finished?
All your dreams and hopes, how long till they're all diminished?

The problems in your life are stacking up like dirty dishes
Instead of aims and goals, all that's left in mind are wishes
And wishes do nothing but make your life the more deficient
And when the day ends what you've achieved is not sufficient...

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Jamie T - Sheila

One of my favourite songs. Really deep.

Love

Love keeps me in chains, from which I cannot be freed
Love is my medicine, something daily that I need
Love is like a trap, catches you when unaware
Love is my best friend, through it all it's always there
Love is all I want, love's what I will always need
Love's the vital ingredient in all of our deeds
Just like sin, love is a seed inside our souls
Every minute, every hour, every day love grows

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Words

Words are my secret weapon
Words, to me, are like poison
They hit their targets, dead on
Words create in mind a vision
Words are my enemies, words are like a friend to me
They take me feel dead, or make life so heavenly
Words always set me free, words are like my rescuers
Words are my prison guards, keep me prisoner forever

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

My Angel

When I'm walking down the street, you fend off all the madness
When i'm feeling so alone, you comfort me in silence
Through all the crazy things I've done to what we have
You make it through with me and in the end we laugh
And at your finest hour you tell the world I'm your power
And if the world refuses to hear you, you say it louder

How can I push your love away without a valid reason
When you are stuck by me through all the changing seasons
In my darkest moments, when I cry you shed my tears
You are just like a wall defending me from all my fears
when I close my eyes and I should feel you touch my soul
I let you in my heart so all my secrets you may know

You pull me from the grasps of the hands coming from the shadows
I see your face by my reflection in the rivers that are shallow
I can never walk in shadows now that I'm with you
And when you are not there i have your love that still stays true
Together may we rise above the world, through every weather
Under your wings may I fly with you into the forever

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Fear Of Old Age

I'm getting older everyday
And i have changed in many ways
my youth has left me far behind
I am more mature in my mind

I've had a few experiences
Through them i've learnt good and bad things
Still I journey to find the truth
While trying to hold on to my youth

Everyday I look at my face
Childhood has left me with no trace
Of all the real joy I once felt
Since then real pain's what I've been dealt

I'm in my prime of my full strength
Each day I try to stretch it's length
The next generation will come
And in their peak I will be gone

I struggle to feel glad, not sad
And celebrate the youth I had
For old age looms, wrinkles shall come
And all these 'good' looks will be gone

Bones will get weary, body weak
I shall be drained of strength each week
Lines on my forehead, hair turned grey
Eventually I'll pass away

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

A Dream

Awaken in a cemetery, everything was blurry
I came round soon, then I got up in a hurry
The air all around me was so foggy
All I saw were tombstones where people were buried

I looked at the sky and the stars were hidden
To show me it's glow, the full moon was forbidden
I walked down a path towards people that were stood
like time was still, amongst trees in the wood

A cold shiver down my spine as I got closer
The mood was eeire and the air got colder
I looked at their faces and they had no expressions
No looks of sadness, joy or depression

Then suddenly I realised that they were all souls
Belong to the bodies under all the tombstones
I was here in the abyss between life and death
Deep fear overwhelmed my panicking breaths

Afriad that I might soon be one of them
Closed my eyes, trying to wake up out of this realm...

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Eye Contact

Checking you out, as you are looking at me
from the way you look, guess you like what you see
I'm chilling in my zone listing to my music
Nodding my head, you can tell that I feel it

We're on the same bus, where're you going to get off
'Cause looking at your beauty, I just can't get enough
Not going to approach you cos I feel I'm looking rough
And I know talking to you right now is going to be tough

You're pressing the bell, and right now you're getting up
It's quite unfortunate that this is not my stop
I really would like to get off and come with you
But I have not yet spoken, let alone even greet you

As I turn my head i catch you throwing me a glance
Heart beats faster, I tell myself just take the chance
But there's a lot of people, I don't want to get shamed
If I lose you for pride then I have myself to blame

You get off, then look at me as the bus drives away
Just my luck I guess, maybe we'll see some other day

P.S just made up up so go easy, its meant to be a fun poem...:)

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

So krayzie!!!

Just so you know I'm chatting to Krayzie Bone online now...YES!!!

I Can Change

I can change the way I am
I can pull a whole new stance
I can change the way I dance
I can change the way I stand
I can change what the world feels
I can make a proud man kneel
I can fly and touch the sky
I can make the world feel high
I can change to a new vibe
I can change the people's minds
I can make familiar strange
I can change, yes I can change

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

I Miss You

I miss you, I won't forget thee
Although you lay now six feet deep
your memories stay fresh in mind
Thinking of you helps me unwind

Your days with me are since long gone
And now you have left me alone
Your face, your smile, i sorely miss
Memories of you are painful bliss

I know insde one day we'll meet
The day you shall rise from six feet
And this sadness and grief shall pass
We'll be reunited at last

In lonely nights i think of you
On sunny days when skys are blue
To your name I aim to stay true
And I promise you I'll be good

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Your Love

Your love for me has shown no bounds
You lift me up when I am down
You search my soul, reveal the truth
You take me back into my youth
You care not for what the world says
You stay with me in my dark days
You elevate me from my sins
You help me fight battles within
You protect me from all bad things
You cry for me, you laugh, you sing
You break my chains and set me free
You are my love, the one for me

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Why?

Why do I hurt the ones I love
And waste my time with those I don't?
Why do I search for what is there
And spend time with those that don't care?
Why do I fade the real things out
And waste my time mucking about?
Why do I care about their thoughts
Yet care for my thoughts, they do not?
Why do I feel like I'm alone
When loved ones offer me a home?
Why push away the ones I need
And become self-centred on greed?
How do I expect to survive
When I do not care for my life?
Why do I dodge my Lord above
When all He's done is show me love?
When will I stop living a lie
Face the truth, and open my eyes?

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Departing (The Last Moment)

Hold my hand darling, I feel my soul slipping
My vision is blury, I hear demons creeping
I feel my life draining, and my end is nearing
My missions incomplete, my fate I am fearing

Hold me for the last time, before I am taken
For tomorrow morning I shall not awaken
Fill both my ears with words, tell me something
Of love, before i leave here and I am nothing

Please do not forget me, and please do forgive me
in my last moments, I pray do not leave me
my heart beats are slower, my last breath draws closer
My spirit is leaving, my body is colder

My end is in view, and all I see is darkness
The only emotion towards it is sadness
Let go of my hand as I draw in my last breath
All that you shall have is my body in the earth

Goodbye to you, darling, your love was the sweetness
But now I must go under into the deepness...

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Night Of Sin

I'm deep in this sin like a stiff in the coffin
The aura is dense, and it's smoke leaves me coughing
I walk down the corridors of pain and sadness
Alone I journey into a world of darkness

I look to the ground and I'm walking on fire
To save my ill spirit I have no desire
The lowest levels of shame is my residence
My eyes are so vacant, I live in loneliness

The voices are fading, the shadows closing in
To take what is left of my spirit in this sin
I know where I'm headiing, I hear all the screaming
The fear is so real, I know I am not dreaming

I lay in the box and I hear all the demons
They're silently coming, they're steadily creeping
My soul is their toy, as they play with my weakness
They shred through my soul, I've a slave to their sickness

At dawn they are gone, leaving me in my cold sweats
In shame, and in guilt, with a lot I must regret
The sun is my enemy, leaving me blinded
It's light in my eyes, I reject all it's kindness

My body in shudders from a night of nightmares
As evil has left me in sin with a dead stare
So get up, I must, continue on my journey
Alone in silence, my dead soul i must bury...

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Look Into My Eyes (Interlude...kind of)

Look real deep into my eyes
Say the truth, don't tell me lies
Do you see a boy that cries
or a man waiting to die

do you see the rage that burns
or a heart that's badly torn
can you see the pain i feel
be honest and keep it real

can you see a soul so shy
Or someone that lives for pride
Do you see a heart so cold
or stories that haven't been told

Are there vast secrets that lie
When you look into my eyes?

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Deadly Thoughts

You came in the darkness, invaded my space
Now engage the heartless, engulf in my rage
Enhaced in the shadows, the deadliest sage
The beast of the wild broken free from it's cage

Be burned by the hatred till you are no more
Feel the fire eat you right down to the core
Look deep into my eyes and feel the time stop
The doors to your doom, now your dead body drops

Be frozen in timeless death you worthless scum
I feel nothing for you as your corpse does burn
You were doomed from the start, there's nowhere to run
I will be so ruthless with you till I'm done

You stepped in the darkness, now you are my slave
My wrath will smother you, dump you in the grave
My presence, your nightmare, you think suicide
Your screams will be worthless till blood you have cried

You WILL feel my vengeance come down on your corpse
Your soul tormented as your foul body rotts
Your neck in my fist, till your dead eyes face down
You're rotting in pieces six feet in the ground

The next time you see me and my soul's in silence
Don't play with my mode, or you will feel my violence

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

The Beginning Of The End

The end is the beginning, no the end is not the end
Stop the procastinating, know your friends are not your friends
The life you live is not yours, for you can't stretch out it's span
Forget insecurities, that's part of the devil's plan

Relax your mind, do not stress, see the road that lies ahead
Pray for your soul and others, to be saved before your bed
Free up your mind from evil, depart and run from all sin
Cleanse your soul of all darkness, before the end does begin

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Reflection (Phase 2)

I've come a long way from my youth
In search of the eternal truth
Walking the path to the sunset
Not having reached the end just yet
And when i make it to the end
I shall be alone, with no friends
For alone I came, so I'll go
Where that shall be, I do not know

But when i'm gone, know this dear ones
Let us not forget where we're from
Let's not forget those that are gone
Until our time on earth is done
My companion's been a free mind
To help my twisted soul unwind
The short life here is ours to spend
So use it wisely till the end

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Welcome To My World

I go for long walks in the park
I love the silence in the dark
Welcome to my world
I could curl up here for days
Change my vibe in many ways
Welcome to my world
I can unleash rythmic data
Watch my power become greater
Welcome to my world
My mind's full of thoughts and ponders
Everything in it's a wonder
Welcome to my world
Let me take you on a journey
There's no place for pride and money
Welcome to my world
We can flow as one together
I can intrique you forever
Welcome to my world

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

The Verve Bittersweet Symphony live

This song is like the soundtrack to my mindstate when I'm in my zone; to me it's a classic. Enjoy

Needing Someone

I need someone that makes me chill
A genuine soul that keeps it real
With a relaxed vibe when she comes
But can get wild whenever it's on
Someone who can look in my soul
And show me things i didn't know
Who will always be by my side
And bring some peace inside my mind

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

The Struggle Continues...

We're walking through the windy stormy weather
We battle our way through hard times but we're still together
We're trying so hard, just looking out here for each other
We've got only ourselves, in this world that's getting colder

So day by day we try to maintain through all our troubles
Trying to be good seems like a task, it's such a struggle
And when temptation comes, it's like it comes in doubles
United we stand, we can make it over these hurdles

So many we've lost along the way, still more are going
We're losing our way, don't even know who we're following
We're missing the light in our paths, although it's glowing
Away from our reach, all our chances we are throwing

On all of our sufferings, why does this life get harder
The wind still blows, the weather's not getting milder
Control of our fates, some of us have tried to master
We go on our way, still we're searching for an answer

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Thought process

I've had three dreams recently about the world ending.
I've tried to avoid those around, but i can't.
I'm finally getting a bit of that time to be in my zone I once had.
I wish I had peace in my heart, instead of the rage that burns inside sometimes, at the wrong time.
Sometimes people think they know you and judge you, when they can't even start to realise who you really are.
Just the thought process going in my head at this 'post' time.
"Sigh", the struggle continues...

Chantel

To see you trapped in darkness there
In blissful peace, my eyes did stare
And at that point I realised
The beauty missing in your eyes

Your soul taken before the chance
To once more sing, to pray, to dance
Sweet words for you, now nothingness
So beautiful, in your last dress

An early leave from those you love
Missing the one that we adored
The silence, tense, reflects our fear
Our sadness, dense, we shed our tears

A kiss for you, in your last sleep
A timeless slumber, still and deep
Your troubles taken off your chest
Where finally, you lay to rest


For Chantel...
We miss you...Rest in Peace

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Losing You

I reach to touch your tender hand
But you are on a distant land
You fade away into the mist
Of memories full of sweet bliss

I go for walks to think of you
Yet still inside i feel so blue
Because the one to whom i'm true
Is far from me, and that is you

I can not love somebody else
If I tried it will be pretence
Because my mind is far away
And all I'd do is walk away

Which direction, north, south, east, west
To lay my broken heart to rest
From all the pain that has been caused
by you being gone, my greatest loss

"Too long i have missed being
Around the one that makes me feel
Like angels when sweet songs they sing
So high, so free, in love, so real"

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

The Voice

Welcome back, old fried, Duntee
The shadows missed you miserably
Come back into these arms of mine
Once more let me take over your mind

I told you they'd be mean to you
Look at the pain they've put you through
You opened up and let them in
And to your heart they were so mean

Come and relax inside the dark
Get rid of that weakened old heart
its of no use to you no more
For your sadness, I have the cure

Heartlessness is the way to go
To let these ghosts out of your soul
Let me lead, and you follow
The gloomy path's the way to go

The world rejects you, tells you lies
But no one knows you more than I
So come to me, Duntee, and hide
Where your anger and rage resides

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Dreams

If I go to bed tonight, then will I meet you in my dreams
If I prayed with all my might, then will you take me to your realm
If I thought of you so hard, then will you somehow appear
Cos everytime I close my eyes, I always wish that you were here

Fate always keeps us far apart, yet somehow inside we're still close
And the world tries to break our hearts, and stop the love inside that flows
Distance comes hard with all it's miles, to sweep away our memories
But we both smile 'cause all the while, your love waits for me in our dreams

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Vanity...

...is bliss...: )

Stressed out...

Really trying to relax my mind
stress is all thats on my mind
need some peace, tranquility
i just need some time to think

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Africa

I want to go home to the place where i belong
I want to breathe the air of the land where i'm from
The root of my father's father's father's heritage
I want to refresh my life, start a new page
I want to feel the love that i used to have before
I want to recognize what it is that's in my core
i want to work it's earth, want to be amongst my people
I want to strengthen my soul that has turned feeble
I want to appreciate the things that i have
I want the energy of which i've been long starved
i want to be free with my sisters and my brothers
I want to be united with my long lost mother

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

For You

When I look into your eyes girl you give me fever
I'm frozen while you explore my mind, body all in shivers
Always in awe of your presence, 'cos you're like a diva
Feels like I'm falling endlessly, 'cos your love gets deeper

Missing moments when I'd catch your eye in the reflection
Unspoken love in need to be expressed through some affection
You rise me from the darkest shadows of pain and depression
Our love in rythm like pure poetry's expression

You turn to heaven all my battles and my hardest struggles
You make me yearn for just a touch, to be safe in your cuddle
In the last hour of life's darkest storm, close to you, I'd huddle
For in your arms i am set free from all of this world's troubles

Without your love, I'm just a man walking through life's pretence
My love for you preserved for you, I shall maintain in silence
Because for now this is the closest I'll ever be to bliss
Unknown to all, for you to know, you are the one I miss

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Dawn of the End - Analysis

These are the moments when we huddle together
When we all say that we love each other
Secrets once hidden are now all discovered
Shame of our humility, not facing one another
Yet just yesterday none of us could be bothered
To share all these feelings with our sisters and our brothers
The truth and the matters of the heart we all covered
The love we could share, with hate we all smothered

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Dawn of The End

Looking out the window as the wind blows harder
Gazing at the sky as the clouds go darker
Looking down the street, people run helter skelter
In fear of their fates or in fear of the weather?

The sun has taken it's shine from our eyes
Afriad of what's to come, we can feel fear rise
Animals have run, humans seek where to hide
Staring at the heavens, no birds in the sky

This is what we've waited for all days of our lives
The time has come when the dead shall rise
All the loved ones to whom we all said bye
Oblivious to the magnified fear in our eyes

The rain starts pouring and the leaves start flying
The dogs all howling and the flowers all dying
The mothers are weeping and the children are crying
the dead are standing where they once were lying

The force of the hurricanes feel like a warning
of a brewing storm that's yet to be coming
For some reason the world feels like a coffin
Closing in on us, feeling like we're stuffed in

our eyes are all closed praying that it's not real
trying to make bold of the fear that we feel
Facing the reality the due end is dawning
Burning in the light of the one that is coming...

(From a dream I had...)

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

No More

You keep your thoughts and so will I
Won't share with you secrets I hide
I made a mistake opening up
But now all of those days will stop
Mistakes I made, but I'm no fool
You stress me, but I'll keep my cool
You've had your chances, now they're gone
The days of playing me are done

I may not be the coolest dude
Won't always come across as smooth
But I see through the things you do
And that's why you and I are through
So keep your thoughts and I'll keep mine
Don't worry about me, I'm fine
You'll never know what's in my mind
If you search, darkness's all you'll find

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

You...

I never thought I'd have somebody like you girl
I always maintain, but you've come into my world
I used to be so cold but now you've made me warm
My heart was full of rage, but you have calmed the storms
Through all the wild and windy weathers
you made sure we stayed together
Said you won't leave me, never
I said we won't be, ever
Each time I try to escape your vibe
Somehow you reach inside my mind
You easily take away my pride
Make me want be by your side

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Krayzie Bone - The Fixtape Volume One: Smoke On This

www.myspace.com/officialthuglinerecords

happy...

= lame attempt to catch the sunset from my window...:)

I love it when I'm happy and i hate it when i'm sad

And when I do something nice, man i feel glad

That somehow i've contributed to someone's life

I want to keep doing good things while i'm alive

Walking down the street with no aim in my stride

Not minding if pedestrians push me from side to side

Rainy is the weather but there's sunshine in my mind

Looking for ways for me to do something kind

Outside i'm a man but inside i'm a boy

All the things I like are all simply my toys

All the sweet memories from my innocence

Smoothens my vibe and I feel less tense

As I'm walking in the sun of my mind with no worries

At a slow pace, as you can see i'm in no hurry

I steal few moments just to think about good thngs

About positive opportunities life can bring

My mind is care-free, the world is my playground

Enjoying this limited peace that I have found...

Trying To Maintain After a Hard Day's Struggle

Here I am again dwelling in much sin
Wondering where the heck my sanity's been
Taking over my mind are the evil thoughts
Trying to squeeze them out, now my brain's in knots

Thinking about going outside for a stroll
But I just really want to stay alone
Take some time, buy some time to clear my head
Feels like all the innocence in me is dead

When will the sunshine ever come in my life
'Cause it feels like every step is into pain and strife
Why won't these demons ever let me be
When will these inner struggles ever cease

Head in my hand, slow breaths I do release
trying to instill in my world, some peace

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Unrequited Love

I really like to be on my own
Makes me feel like I'm at at home
Which i've created in my mind
One may laugh but i don't mind
Sometimes I wonder what it's like
To be in love, I bet it's nice
Does one feel so high like a kite?
Some say the feeling has no price

I wish that i could be with you
Sometimes I wish you'd want me too
I wish you'd want to be with me
The real me inside, not Duntee
It feels so nice to think of you
It brings me up when I feel blue
It makes me need your love so much
It leaves me yearning for your touch
I know you'll never be with me
I know you'll never set me free
Some may come, and some may go
What your love's like, I'll never know...

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Where do we go from here...

Where do we go from here...
What do we do when the clouds get dark...
What do we do when the shadows close in...
What do we do when instincts call...
Which way do we go...from here...

Nightingale

Goodnight forever, my nightingale
Your heart has left me thin and frail
Your love has left me very pale
The love we shared is another tale

I meet new friends and i meet new faces
from different backgrounds and different races
all going in their different paces
in different towns and different places

But none of them can ever be
as good as you have been to me
And that's why this poem's specially
written for you, my love, from me.

(this is the first real poem I ever wrote, back in CTC in 1997. Jacqueline Iheme read it out at the 1st school concert.)

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Forgive & Free

To all who've ever hurt me, I forgive
mum, dad, friends, enemies I forgive
all I've ever hurt please forgive
said, done, even thought, please forgive

lets all meet on the otherside
all hold hands and be with smiles
no more hurt, no more sadness
filled with peace, joy and gladness

when I forgive I set me free
from all guilt's chains and boundaries
when you forgive then you are free
and together freely we'll be

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Naturally...

I love to dwell in so much peace
on my face blows the calm breeze
hand in hand with whom I love
no tears like rain from above
just be myself just with you
no pretence, just being true
me for you and you for me
bond together naturally

here's a flower just for you
here's a peck I saved for you
here are my arms just for you
here's my love, saved just for you
softest of the softest skins
sweetest of all hearts within
most beautiful soul I've ever seen
your warmth's the best place I've been

free like birds, to fly away
entwined in our love for days
for our love I want to pray
sleep on me is why you'll stay
don't you know you set me free
with you I can just be me
my love is yours, and yours for me
so free in love, so naturally

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

The Mask...

If you see me with a frown on my face then I'm fronting
So don't be afraid if towards you I'm coming
it's just a little mask I wear to hide my insecurities
Afraid if Iexpose myself then everyone will laugh at me

Hard at me, be hard on me for not being what I'm meant to be
Or what it really is that they really want for me to be
But really all I'll be is me or what it is I'm meant to be
Which isn't what you want for me, 'cos all I want is to be free

Excuse me, brother, I'm only saying what it is
I'm sorry my sister, for times i wasn't there for thee
I was too busy indulging in ignorant bliss
Feeling sorry for myself and dwelling in my self-pity

Witty, some call me, but they don't know what I'm all about
All they do is smile when I'm there, when I turn they pout
Like who the heck this good-for-nothing brother really thinks he is
And so to hide the pain I wear the mask so what I feel, they miss....

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Reflection (Phase 1)

Every single day in my life i try to get away
from all the trials and stress that always seem to come my way
I'm always wishing in my heart that I was still younger
but time drifts me from my youth, makes my heart grow fonder
that's due to the absence, the distance makes memories
of the young child and experiences that used to be
spent in the playground with all the little boys and girls
To me, life was just an endless free world

Just thinking about all the friends I had that have passed away
Makes me feel sure there's a reason I am here today
All of those souls long gone, here's a line for you
you'll always have a place in my heart, friends, that is true
Time just flies by, bringing us closer
To the very end where our bodies get colder
Wasting all our time in sin as we get older
like we're not afraid of death, boy we're getting bolder

I look into the mirror and i think to myself, "man,
What if I never get to see this old face again?"
And then i feel the vibe of a cold shiver down my spine
And thoughts about the end of the world start to fill my mind
I think about my brother and my sisters and my mother
I think about my father and my friends and I bother
The thought of them not being around makes me feel down
But then something tells me I should turn my mind around

I guess it's all about what we do in our lives now
I'm praying that we're all good, 'cos we're all going to die somehow...

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Remembering CTC...

I like to have moments in my life when i maintain
And when I feel the vibe in my mind, then i get a pen
Let it all out on paper while i represent
The love that I got for a place I'll never forget
I used to dwell in the city called CTC
And if you were there in my time, you'd be feeling me
I'm taking some time out now trying to reminisce
about the rugged years with the trues, those were pure bliss
I remember in the class it was just like a battlefield
but at the same time, we all used to maintain and chill
taking no crap , rebelling against the enemies
All the teachers we didn't like(at least they were to me)
I like to take some time out in life, just to reminisce
about all the guys and girls i know i will surely miss
MO-21-A, Philip, even Rosie,
Uche and the rest were considered like my family
I learnt a lot from everyone, and my memories live on
Scattered in the world, yet not forgetting where we are from...

(Arnold Mozia, Senter Mozia (MO-21-A), Uche Chugbo, Shireen Udenka, Philip, Nadia, Bolaji, Afolabi, Robin, Vivian, Kachi, Ada, Jacqueline & Geraldine Iheme, Bolaji & all)

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Missing Love...

I miss you, love, where have you gone
With you, the best of me has gone
here i stay, just me, alone
without your love, I have no home
If this was fate, then i am cursed
And things to come for me are worse
how can it be that destiny
will take you, love, away from me

The deepest moments that we shared
the thoughts that went through both our heads
Unspoken words of love entwined
As we were one, in heart and mind
To feel the breeze of your soft breath
I'm sure will grant me perfect health
restore the faith i had in hope
and with future battles i'll cope

How saddened I am, dying here
yet unable to shed a tear
My heart is cold, emotions dried
My fragile soul, too weak to cry
So hide behind a mask i must
fight to believe in fate, and trust
And hope our moons eclipse again
And heal me from this hurt and pain

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Sleepy Thoughts...

I sit in the dark, pondering my fate
Which way am I headed? Which way do I go?
What lies ahead for me...silence
Save for the occassional sound of sirens
the battle cry of crime-fighters on a mission
Just sitting, wondering, thinking...nothingness
maybe slumber overwhelmes me, discarding of ability to reason and analyze
My pillow looks at me longingly,
as a lover to her partner in need of affection...
Affection...how i miss dwelling in it's definition..those were the days
Where are you now? What are you doing?
Do you think of me? Do I think of you?
No and yes, yes and no, simultaneausly
Sleep beckons... I cannot disobey...

Coming For You...

Like earthquakes, volcano eruptions
I'm unstable, let loose and you're done
Let the anger inside push the rage outside
And then you'll know that it's time to die
Don't even think about running, 'cos you know i'll be gunning
feel the ground shake when you hear my battle drummings
Feel cold shivers down your spine you know i'm coming
Like the shadows in your dark room I'll be haunting
forget about the creatures you see in your dreams
'Cos I make sweet dreams of the nightmares you've seen...

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

The Dark Side

I'm running away from the darkside,
but the shadows keep pulling me back
but i don't want that, I'm trying to head out to the sunlight
but something keeps calling me back inside

I guess you could say that i'm dark in my heart
But then thats if i really do have a heart
It's nothing it's just shadows from the deep abyss
Some people call it evil but for me it's all bliss

So why do i want to get away
And in lonely moments why do I pray
That the spirit inside can find some peace
While I'm slowly seeping blood from my fists

So back I go in the shell i created
out of all the things I would have hated
To keep fighting with the demons inside
You can see the struggle if you look deep in my eyes...

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Inspiration

Once again, I am being inspired by Shireen 2 do something(lol). Okay havent done this b4, hope 2 get it done right.I've just had a 'diifernt' dream, so as usual I'm on the computer messing about with programs and softwares. I've got 2day off from work, so i'm going todo two things that bring me peace. Go to the gym and find a nice spot to write some poetry. If a have a nice short 1 i'll post it up here.Lets see what the day brings...

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)