This World...

What kind of world do we live in where little kids are now killing
What kind of girls are we seeing that have no self respect within

What kind of mentality does one have to want to glorify evil
Why does the world ignore the poor, like they're non-existent people

There's no escape from pain out there, The world is cold, and no one cares
No real interest on how you fare, but laughs with all your fears laid bare

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Eleventh Hour Reality

At the eleventh hour I awake from procastination
Been weary of the future and my final destination
But I know now it's imnent that I face these tribulations
For there's no way out, so I must muster determination

The slumber was prolonged, body weakened from the sinning
And no longer in me, myself and I did I believe in
I wasn't always like this I recall from the beginning
But cut I was and life experiences made the wounds deepen

The sun is up, the world is moving, now I must endeavour
To face my fears, ditch the worries, and rectify my errors
No looking in the past or worrying 'bout what happened before
Must face the ugly truth that rears it's head when I face mirrors

No suicidal thoughts that prance around in drowned depression
Untangle my soul from the grasps and grips of sin's possession
Must free my mind from worldly temporary wants, obsessions
And take the first step out of this subliminal suppression

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Protect From You

Although I'm vulnerable inside
I hold on dearly to my pride
For past experience let me know
My true feelings don't need to show

So despite yearnings to expose
My feelings that you once disposed
I keep them safe and far from you
Though deep inside I'm hurting through

There's no point trying to sort things out
Those days are gone, and time ran out
Why should I even care to ask
If you are well, that's such a task

A waste of time for me to do
Logic diverts my thoughts from you
So keep your words, unneeded here
And don't pretend to me you care

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

I've Learnt

I've learnt to watch the ones I love
Depart from me, once here, now gone
The pain is deep, the times are rough
But nothing I can do, it's done

I've learnt to watch them walk away
So many options day by day
I've learnt to grit my teeth inside
My fears, pain and sadness, I hide

I've learnt to live bound by the guilt
Within the walls 'round me I built
Protected from future heartache
When heartache is the breath I take

I've learnt to numb the pulsating
pain in my chest, that strong throbbing
I've learnt to sometimes shut my mouth
Whenever my thoughts are in doubt

I've learnt that I have no control
Over a thing, not even my soul
And above all these things I know
I've learnt the hard way to let go

I've learnt experience teaches best
I've learnt this life is but a test
I've learnt though the past leaves one burnt
Somewhere there is a lesson learnt

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Don't Follow My Heart

We never really sorted out the issues stuck between us
Rotten decomposed is the aura that'd have freed us
The world of relationships now no longer needs us
The marriage, the couple to be, that would've been us

You say that you're happy, and I conceal feelings for you
Pretend to be numb, though a part in here yearns for you
But thoughts, logic implemented reminding me of you
Steers me from emotional attachment, I'm free from you

Or is it really freedom if you lie about you feelings?
The mask of a clown now the face, inside you're reeling
From memories and inner guilt continuously peeling
Away at the walls around your heart, eating the healing

They say follow your heart, but I've strayed from it's path
It lead me down the road of pain, misery and wrath
So now I walk through the bushes of more certain uncertainty
I do the maths in my brain, so stronger now mentally

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Preparation

Can't be distracted in this phase of hibernation
Rid of distractions, I'm deep in concentration
A time to grow inside, train my body and my mind
Reading and lifting and thinking then unwind

Searching for the truth, analyzing all I find
Buried in my books, I was taught since I was nine
Away from the public, I'm withdrawing from that limelight
Improving on my body, making sure I've got my mind right

Years that I've wasted, making sure they're all made up for
Food for thought tasted, learning from my Saviour
Ensuring I'm ahead and aware of all the evil
Removing all the scales from my eyes so I can see through

The ways of the wicked, deceit and intentions
Think twice before I act, or my thoughts are mentioned
Not solitary confinement, or a long term detention
Ready for improvement, an overdue reinvention

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Hibernation

So now it's time that I extraxct myself from the front row, retract
My woes of depression, face facts, that recently I have sidetracked
It's now the time to hibernate, Avoid distractions, concentrate
Work on my dreams, and seal my fate, No time to waste, no time to wait

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Not Ready

Why is it now that others show, attention like no tomorrow
When is it when I'm unprepared, that others want to show they care
I'm in no mind to be attached, and not prepared to be a catch
I'm just trying now to hold back, taking things slow, watching my tracks

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)