Thoughts That Cross The Mind

Entrapped in this prison, soul weakened, submerging
The death of innocence, the loss of a virgin
The cries for help silenced, the tears shed while sleeping
The holes in my heart through which the demons creep in

The anger that lead to destruction, a breakdown
The self-hate, the pain, the emotions, awake now
Can't sleep for some peace, the insomnia, the sadness
That overwhelms my soul, alone in the darkness

The fear of the future, lacking motivation
The procastinations, awaiting salvation
The logs in my eyes that are heavy, the burdens
Of inner shame, memories that can't be forgotten

The door constantly locked, the window that stays closed
The words that are written leaving my soul exposed
Confusion, frustration, the lack of sanity
Awaiting more chaos in life, calamity

The weakness instilled in the heart can't be measured
The smile on the mask while outside, the peer pressure
The lack of forgiveness for myself, unworthy
The fear of death lurking, the stress and the worries

The visions, the nightmares, the voices that whisper
The roots of the tree of depression grow deeper
The mental imagery, daydreams, disillusions
The thoughts that cross this mental state of confusion

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)

Spare Me Of Love

You expect me to be a person I'm not
To engage emotions that now in me, rot
A prisoner of the kind of love set adrift
Into a world I've accepted doesn't exist

They tell me to open up, give love a try
Why risk being hurt by more pain and more lies
They say that I can not tell what the future holds
But experience shys me from what I've been told

You expect me to be engaged and involved
When to me love is a dark mystery unsolved
Why swim with the currents of love that evolves
From uncontrolled emotions soon to dissolve

Dissolve into nothing but salt tasting tears
Stirred with blood from a heart now ridden with fears
Why risk starving for someone who might not care
Why drain your soul of peace? I know, I've been there

So free me of promises of what love brings
Silence all the songs of emotions you sing
For numbness protects me from love and it's sting
And saves me future tears for my eyes to wring

Copyright © 2009 Anthony Phillips (DUNTEE)